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Originally Posted by
Skeppio
I have no worth. If I didn't keep this thread up, someone else would. I didn't even originally create it, nor did I spearhead the original thread (back when it was called the Depression Thread). All I did was ride on the coattails of far better people. :smallfrown:
"If I have seen further it is by standing on the shoulders of giants." - Newton
You may not have made the original thread, but you
have kept it going. It doesn't matter if somebody else would've done or not,
you were the one to do it. Your thread directly lead to me coming here for help and finally trying to sort out my own problems. We can torture ourselves forever with what might have been. What matters is what is. Your threads have given people the help they seek and space to talk deeply about what matters to them. You are directly responsible for that, and it is an amazing thing that you've done. And it was
you that did it.
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Originally Posted by
Skeppio
I know I drove my friends away because I was arguing with them to the point that they said they were leaving. They do try to help. They try more than I deserve. But they can't help, because I'm too horrible and evil to be saved, and in the end all they can do is walk away before I drag them under too. :smallfrown: They'll probably forgive me after a while. I don't understand why they would though. I don't deserve it.
Emphasis mine. That is entirely untrue. I've not seen a single thing you've said here that would make me think that. You may say that it's because you've put a mask on for the forum, but if you were truly horrible and evil then you wouldn't have tried to look like anything but that. I understand the confusion at why people would want to tolerate you, much less be friends with you. Really, I do, that's part of what I'm trying to deal with right now. The important thing is that they
do care about you. I found
this to be quite profound when I first saw it, hopefully you'll feel the same way.
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Originally Posted by
Skeppio
I still have zero creativity. Looking outside, going outside, looking up things online, nothing helps. Nothing interests me anymore. Not one single thing. It's like I'm barely alive anymore. I just go through the motions each day. :smallsigh: I can't do a damn thing...
Don't go outside to seek inspiration. Go outside for the sake of going outside. I know I've already said it, but make a fresh routine. Arrange to meet friends regularly, not for anything major, just to chat about the world and have a coffee. They'll be happy to see you.
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Skeppio
As for WoW, the guild needs me. We're not a big guild, so every member that can raid helps. Plus I'm the raid leader, not that I couldn't be replaced. In fact, I'd be easily replaced. I'm just a damage-dealer, not like I'm an important role like healer or tank. My class is solely a damage-dealer and the only class I enjoy playing, so I'm essentially useless to the guild.
Like I said, when a game stops being fun you kinda need to step away for a little while. Guilds come and go, it happens. It sucks, but it does happen. I'm part of a guild on a different game that's been around for a very long time. We used to be one of the biggest, now I'm often one of the only ones on in the guild. Don't drive yourself to frustration over WoW. If you've got a weekly meet up for raiding, then stick to that, but take some time away from it outside of that. You don't need to be present there all the time.
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Skeppio
As for traveling, I don't have the money. And to emigrate, I apparently don't have enough funds/qualifications, despite being a fluent english speaker, having a diploma-level degree and previous job experience with good references. Apparently it's just not enough. :smallfrown:
I'm afraid I can't offer any words of wisdom here. Traveling is tough and expensive, which is very unfortunate. What kind of qualifications are they asking for? And what's your degree in?
Also, you've achieved a diploma-level degree. That's something to be proud of, no matter what mark you got in it. I know plenty of people who haven't managed the equivalent.
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Skeppio
Again, I don't have worth. I can't possibly have worth. Nothing about could benefit a single living person. As for the phrase Comissar said "In the billions of years the universe has existed, there has never been somebody like you. In the billions of years to come, there will never again be someone like you.", that's a good thing indeed. It means no-one in older times had to put up with me, and once I'm dead there'll never be another me to ruin anyone's day.
Skeppio, the threads you've made have already benefited many people, myself included. It doesn't matter if someone else would have made them because they
didn't. You did. The world would be poorer for your loss were you to die.
I need to head into uni to do some work now, but I'll be back on later.