- Friends
- School
- Parents
- Mental State
- Glossary
I. Friends
So, one of the continuing problems I'm having here is I have no friends. And even when I do find people who are the types I'd want to associate with (drugs--; similar_interests++;) I still need to convince anyone I find that I'm worth being around, and won't just whine like an emo 12-year-old, so I need to act fine around them until their sense of better judgment goes away and they think that I'm not just some brat.
Like today, while I finally made some friends (The three of them that I came to know were all girls, and really nice), Adam decided to play surgeon with my emotions, and decided to pull my "boys and girls have an infinitely harder time being friends that boys alone."- and "They don't wanna be your friend for real, even so, you'd just screw it up by developing feelings for one anyways."-cards
Jacob was trying to be helpful with "But aren't you looking for that, eventually, too?" to which Adam got the last word in with "And HE has a chance even if he did?! -insert maniacal laughter here- GTFO, noob!
Jacob was banned from the server."
Possibly one of the reasons people don't wanna associate themselves with me, is that I will open right up to you and act like we've been frinds for more than two seconds. In fact, I usually follow the ally until proven enemy tactic, where I just don't mind getting right into the introductions, and further along into the background stories. >.>
II. School
So, I'm learning a lot about school in Canada. Namely that the 5,000
Nuyen dollar deposit for international students, and the form that you need on top of a student visa to take classes, that you get at the border, making the student visa a useless sticker in a useless book from a pointless process. Seriously, if you need that paper to be a student AT ALL, why do they give you a student visa anyhow? Oi.
Anyhow, I went to the mandatory International Student Orientation today. Yes. "International". I'm a 30-minute drive from my home country. It's not that big of a gap, and the language barrier is virtually nonexistant. There I made a complete ass of myself twice, felt like crap more than once, but made some friends who Adam tells me are actually there to hate me.
III. Parents
I can't get into this now. But, rest assured, my mom and I fight. Daily. It usually ends with me in tears, losing fine motor control rapidly on the floor, and her storming off into another room.
IV. (IIII.) Mental State
Deteriorating. And Rapidly. Suggest emotional transplant immediately, but we don't have the required IRL hugs. Need donors. Fast.
V. (
IIII.)Glossary:
Adam: Self-hate, total jerk who hates Alair as a whole. A tough guy who likes to abuse Jacob.
Jacob: The only bit of my mind that cares about me, likes to try and mend things, but a bit of a weakling.
Sora: The part of Alair that makes his mind more similar to a girl's that a boy's. She acts more than she speaks, and likes to silently hand fuel to Adam, which Jacob would rather refute.