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Re: LGBTAitp 27: Of Shoes, and Ships, and Sealing Wax
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Absol197
Mine was because I had an idea in my head when I was a little younger, that if I wanted to be a girl as badly as I did, then there had to be a girl out there who wanted to be a guy just as bad, right? And if that's the case, why couldn't we, for lack of a better word, trade our sensations, so we could have the shadow of being who we wanted to be?
what followed over the course of several years (and a bit into the present still >_< ) was appealing to various higher powers to be the facilitator of this trade. Several times I was almost certain it had succeeded. Hence, the psychosomatics :smalltongue: .
*Hugs* I just found some neat tricks to make my mind and body do stuff growing up. Most of the ideas were utterly terrible, but occasionally they turned out pretty nicely (for example, I can meditate at the drop of a hat). :smalltongue:
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No, I was referencing Olympic Trampoline, and suggesting Olympic Pole-Dancing :smallbiggrin: .
I know, but every mental image I come up with combining the two looks awesome (also appallingly unsafe, but eh :smalltongue:). @.@
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*hugs back* :smalleek:
I'm sure it'll go well~ *More hugs, though*
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Absol197
Very much agreed :smalleek: . I've been lucky recently, though. Taking steps to become more...well, me, has lessened my dysphoria. Plus, mine doesn't seem to be quite as...sharp? as yours. It's more of a dull, deep, depressing ache that doesn't go away, instead of the sharp, "This is wrong!" that I think (quite possibly incorrectly; I'm just judging by what little I've read) you go through, to make a physical-pain analogy.
Chronic and acute fit.
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I think I've got a very over-active empathy muscle/brain area/thingy: every little thing I read, see or hear about happening to people changes my mood almost as if it's happening to me, and as I've been slowly unlocking my emotions more, it's been getting stronger. It's at the point where I'm getting very confused (and sometimes physically dizzy) about how I actually feel, because it's mixed in with all this other stuff. Maybe this is part of why I started hiding from my emotions in the first place?
*So many hugs*
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Heliomance
Mine varies. At the moment, I'm all girled up and I've been shopping, I feel pretty good. Sure, I've still got the wrong equipment between my legs, but I can ignore it, everything's fine. Sometimes I have the dull ache as you describe, and about three times so far (usually, I find, at the start of female periods) it's got so bad and immediate that I don't want to do anything except curl up in a ball and cry.
*Suddenly remembers how upset she used to get every month or so in high school...* @.@
~Bianca
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Re: LGBTAitp 27: Of Shoes, and Ships, and Sealing Wax
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Tucking plus morning wood is NOT a comfortable combination :smallsigh:
ow
Ouch. D:
I know that's one thing I'm not going to miss at all when I start 'mones. >.>
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Heliomance
Worth it. Worth every second to be able to look down and not see a horrible bulge.
I just don't look down, ever. Or wear really loose long shirts.
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golentan
Hmm... My gal recently discovered some trick involving women's briefs which she said works better with tucking and comfort than things she had tried before.
Oh, uhm, care to share?
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Absol197
Very much agreed :smalleek: . I've been lucky recently, though. Taking steps to become more...well, me, has lessened my dysphoria. Plus, mine doesn't seem to be quite as...sharp? as yours. It's more of a dull, deep, depressing ache that doesn't go away, instead of the sharp, "This is wrong!" that I think (quite possibly incorrectly; I'm just judging by what little I've read) you go through, to make a physical-pain analogy.
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Being aware of it basically opened up the floodgates for me I guess. Usually it's like a small nagging voice in the bag of my head, draining, but can be ignored. But the sudden moments that arrive without warning are awful; like I'm slowly sinking away in a pool of pure black with tendrils crawling up my skin giving me shivers and making me panicky and nervous and just wanting to run and hide forever.....
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Still, I really hope you feel better soon, honey! *Hugs!* I know it sucks!
I think I've got a very over-active empathy muscle/brain area/thingy: every little thing I read, see or hear about happening to people changes my mood almost as if it's happening to me, and as I've been slowly unlocking my emotions more, it's been getting stronger. It's at the point where I'm getting very confused (and sometimes physically dizzy) about how I actually feel, because it's mixed in with all this other stuff. Maybe this is part of why I started hiding from my emotions in the first place?
Oh, that sounds really familiar! Finally admitting that I have emotions really made them so much stronger... I used to pride myself on being completely detached, which I guess was my way of suppressing things. And it sucks sometimes, especially when my friends are sad, but it's also very nice sometimes. I'm incredibly happy and it's probably a bit silly but being able to cry when I read something sad or when I'm really happy is really nice. It's like the world suddenly got colours. I cry very easily these days (just when emotional, not only bad stuff.), one of my best friends actually jokes that when I'll be on HRT I'll have tears dripping down non-stop. :smalltongue:
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As regards dysphoria and tucking, I find my dysphoria is very strongly keyed to appearance. If I can look at myself and see a girl - and almost more importantly, if I'm sure that other people looking at me are seeing a girl - I have far less dysphoria, no matter what I can feel from my body.
Hm hm. Those moments when I idly glance in the mirror and see a girl and can't make her go away a wave of happiness just washes over me.
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*hugs for everyone who wants / needs them*
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She said it involved using a bit of medical tape to keep things in place, then just putting ordinary lady's briefs on over it.
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Arachu
*Hugs* I just found some neat tricks to make my mind and body do stuff growing up. Most of the ideas were utterly terrible, but occasionally they turned out pretty nicely (for example, I can meditate at the drop of a hat). :smalltongue:
Aww :smalltongue: . I wish I could do that!
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Arachu
I know, but every mental image I come up with combining the two looks awesome (also appallingly unsafe, but eh :smalltongue:). @.@
Thinking about it like that, it does look awesome!
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Arachu
Chronic and acute fit.
Hey, there are the words I was looking for!
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Being aware of it basically opened up the floodgates for me I guess. Usually it's like a small nagging voice in the bag of my head, draining, but can be ignored. But the sudden moments that arrive without warning are awful; like I'm slowly sinking away in a pool of pure black with tendrils crawling up my skin giving me shivers and making me panicky and nervous and just wanting to run and hide forever.....
:smalleek: Eep! *hugs!*
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Oh, that sounds really familiar! Finally admitting that I have emotions really made them so much stronger... I used to pride myself on being completely detached, which I guess was my way of suppressing things. And it sucks sometimes, especially when my friends are sad, but it's also very nice sometimes. I'm incredibly happy and it's probably a bit silly but being able to cry when I read something sad or when I'm really happy is really nice. It's like the world suddenly got colours. I cry very easily these days (just when emotional, not only bad stuff.), one of my best friends actually jokes that when I'll be on HRT I'll have tears dripping down non-stop. :smalltongue:
I'm jealous :smalltongue: . I'm not there yet, and I really, really want to be.
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Hm hm. Those moments when I idly glance in the mirror and see a girl and can't make her go away a wave of happiness just washes over me.
More jealous!
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Being aware of it basically opened up the floodgates for me I guess. Usually it's like a small nagging voice in the bag of my head, draining, but can be ignored. But the sudden moments that arrive without warning are awful; like I'm slowly sinking away in a pool of pure black with tendrils crawling up my skin giving me shivers and making me panicky and nervous and just wanting to run and hide forever.....
*Hugs!*
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I have this constant background itching that gets *way* worse if I don't shave regularly/properly... And occasionally it can get really really bad out of nowhere and everything gets really sore and claustrophobic. And then if it's night I usually get nightmares about being beaten to death by mutated versions of myself from high school... >.>
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Oh, that sounds really familiar! Finally admitting that I have emotions really made them so much stronger... I used to pride myself on being completely detached, which I guess was my way of suppressing things. And it sucks sometimes, especially when my friends are sad, but it's also very nice sometimes. I'm incredibly happy and it's probably a bit silly but being able to cry when I read something sad or when I'm really happy is really nice. It's like the world suddenly got colours. I cry very easily these days (just when emotional, not only bad stuff.), one of my best friends actually jokes that when I'll be on HRT I'll have tears dripping down non-stop. :smalltongue:
Hm hm. Those moments when I idly glance in the mirror and see a girl and can't make her go away a wave of happiness just washes over me.
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*hugs for everyone who wants / needs them*
*Hugs~* :smallsmile:
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Absol197
Aww :smalltongue: . I wish I could do that!
I once used it to hold my breath underwater for... I forget exactly how long, but I counted several minutes before someone poked me to make sure I was alive. I felt perfectly fine. :smalltongue:
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Thinking about it like that, it does look awesome!
*Juuump -grip, slide~* X3
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Hey, there are the words I was looking for!
Yay~ :smallbiggrin:
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I'm jealous :smalltongue: . I'm not there yet, and I really, really want to be.
*Hugs*
~Bianca
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golentan
And now my dreams have been crushed. Alas...
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Lentrax
Makes me wish I could have a meaningful conversation... :smallsigh:
I don't think you are the only one golentan. Myself being among the gathered throngs.
I uhm.
:redface:
There are however people I idly flirt with slightly more, and would LIKE to have said conversations with...
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The Succubus
Still feeling dysphoric hun? =( *squeezy cuddle*. I really hope you'll be able to make it to the next UK meet. You looked stunning the last time I saw you. =)
Helio always looks stunning.
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Being aware of it basically opened up the floodgates for me I guess. Usually it's like a small nagging voice in the bag of my head, draining, but can be ignored. But the sudden moments that arrive without warning are awful; like I'm slowly sinking away in a pool of pure black with tendrils crawling up my skin giving me shivers and making me panicky and nervous and just wanting to run and hide forever.....
I Feel That, Bro Sis
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Lix Lorn
I uhm.
:redface:
There are however people I idly flirt with slightly more, and would LIKE to have said conversations with...
My PM is open should you choose to make use of it...
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*hugs to anyone I missed* :smallsmile:
*cheeky flirts to anyone who wants them* :smallredface:
Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. :smallsmile: And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!
-end rant :smallbiggrin:
I could go on but I'd rather not be mean and shove my happiness down everyone's throats. That has happened to me way too much before now. :smallannoyed:
SO! How is everybody?! :smallbiggrin:
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*Hugs* for everyone.
EDIT: And congratulations, Mynxae!
@Astrelia/Absol- Everything you said I feel completely.
I had another therapy session today. The appointment itself was still great, but afterwards as I was walking home, thinking about all the obstacles that still remain to transition, all the things and people I could lose in the process, and how utterly wrong my body felt just hit me like a gargantuan wave. I got back to my apartment and spent an hour just cuddling my Rarity plushie and styling her mane while watching my roommate play video games to distract myself (once I'd calmed sown enough to not be on the verge of tears.) Thankfully, he didn't really question it.
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For me, the minor glimpses of dysphoria are like a kind of nausea that I get when I contemplate my male bits or look too closely in a mirror at my unconquerable scraggle. The sudden acute bouts feel like I'm turning into grotesque sludge and am falling slowly into an inescapable pit of blackness as my form slowly loses coherence. Paradoxically, my is more and more present and disgusting even as I imagine it slowly disintegrating into ooze.
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Pretty ,much identical to Absol and Astrelia, except I managed to additionally persuade myself that emotion and empathy were weaknesses and that I was naturally superior to those who allowed such things. It feels like I've hidden behind a steel mask of callous indifference for so long that it melded with my face. It's so hard to remove, and when I do, it means horrible pain as some of my face comes with it. Things are slowly getting better, but it does feel like I haven't let myself freely feel for so long that when I do it's like a flood.
I tried tucking a few times today. Felt great, but without anything to hold things in place, it doesn't last long, and feels worse when it fails
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Mynxae
Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. :smallsmile: And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!
-end rant :smallbiggrin:
I could go on but I'd rather not be mean and shove my happiness down everyone's throats. That has happened to me way too much before now. :smallannoyed:
Congratulations! I don't know about anybody else, but I get a vicarious happiness when I hear about others getting what they want, even when I'm having a rough time.
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Yeah, I'm familiar with the what's-his-name effect, though I never remember the name, and the issues in the kibbutzim. But that has a very clear evolutionary benefit, whereas attraction to people similar to one's parents seems to me to be a potentially bad thing; if they share many traits, they might share many genes, so mating with them could be a bad thing. So I really don't understand how the attraction to people similar to one's parents thing worked out evolutionarily, I would have expected it to work out like the what's-his-name thing if I had been theorising this stuff while studying primates a few hundred thousand years back. Slight tangent now, looks likes.
I think it's at least partly like this:
You know, by virtue of the fact that you exist, that your parents were successful at reproduction. What you want (evolutionarily speaking) is a mate that will be successful at reproduction. Thus you use your parents - who you know are successful reproducers - as your model for what sort of a mate should be a successful reproducer.
Now, it's also worth pointing out that "like your parents" isn't
necessarily going to mean "genetically extremely similar to your parents and therefore to yourself". We have other mechanisms (smell, for example) to make sure we're mostly attracted to people
genetically different to us, especially in the areas it matters.
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Well obviously the participants have to be informed, consenting adults, so they know they might receive placebo. But also obviously you're not trying to convince them all that they have the placebo or things get skewed.
I read an article just yesterday about the "nocebo" effect and thought of this discussion. Apparently doctors are going to have to think carefully about how they word things like warnings about side-effects, because the placebo effect also works in the direction of "if I think this will make me get sick, it will".
On the causes of sexuality, my opinion based on all the evidence I've seen and heard about is that 1. there's a whole mess of causes, and 2. the exact nature and combination will differ from person to person. I believe that, very generally speaking, it goes something like this:
Genetics: There is a genetic component, not in the sense of "a gay gene", but rather a variety of genes that produce a range of different effects, personality types, hormone production, etc., that can be found in varying concentrations in all sorts of people but that, when they turn up in a particular density and particular composition in an individual happen to give that individual a predisposition (maybe very strong, maybe weakish) to a particular sexuality.
Pre-birth non-genetic stuff: hormones from the mother - you know, all that birth order stuff - coincidences of gene expression, maybe even environmental factors* may further reinforce or weaken/oppose the genetic predisposition.
Post-birth influences: the main evidence I've seen of this is, sadly, sexual abuse (contrary to claims from certain quarters, I don't think I've seen any evidence to back up fears of "sissification" by supposedly too-soft parents), but there could be all sorts of other factors. I, personally, think this is the weakest source of sexuality: I think that to make a biologically heterosexually-predisposed person gay (as opposed to, say, making them bisexual or heteroflexible or into certain types of sexual activity) would almost always require some seriously extreme traumatic experiences which would leave many deep psychological scars. On the other hand, imprinting is a pretty powerful process, so it's not inconceivable to me.
I don't believe there is any "one cause" - I've generally found that if there's a choice of several reasons for something, chances are the reality is some combination of all or several of them.
There is one thing I'd like to point out - not that I'd expect anyone here to need to be told, but there certainly are people who do - that even if something isn't genetic doesn't mean it's a choice, and even if something is hormonal or even environmental doesn't mean it can be prevented or reversed - "cured", if you will. If someone's raised with a relative lack of nutrients and that causes them to not grow as tall as they would otherwise, stuffing them when they're older isn't going to suddenly make them shoot up when they've stopped growing and it's unlikely that they
chose to be short. If I child's parents have to live near a rail road and the kid ends up being a passionate ferroequinologist^, it's hardly in any way their fault, nor something they could or should have prevented.
...I really wish I had a neutral, non-preventable analogy for that :/ But you get the idea. And in any case, as I said, I don't think that's the way it works anyway. I don't think it's likely that environmental/upbringing factors can cause someone to have a sexuality opposite to that which they're biologically predisposed to without it consisting of extreme, traumatic events, and I don't believe there's much, if any, evidence that there's no biological factor at all. Moreover, none of these possible influences are mutually exclusive.
*I don't think I've seen any studies on this bit specifically relating to sexuality, but some recent evidence on the effect of a mother's life history on their offspring and even descendants is fascinating.
^I checked, that's really what they're called. Reina found it for me.
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The Succubus
Tickled a funny bone, so to speak?
It is mildly irritating though - I would like to think my head's in charge of that part of me, rather than it being a semi-sentient being with a will of its own. oO
Oh psh. A hydraulic system activating when you're still for long periods, an the computer is running systems diagnostics? How is that taking control from you~?
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Musashi
*compares mental images of father with that of boyfriend and maternal grandfather*
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*scratches head*
I guess nobody in both our families cares much about respecting psychology anyway. Or maybe that's because my mom's bi and I'm demisexual. But my father didn't look like my maternal grandmother either. Oh, what the hell, I'll get myself homemade cookies instead.
P.S.: yes, that's a funny, I know what "many" means.
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I figured they didn't. I was expressing doubts about the idea proposed by noparlpf who appeared to me to want to do something slightly less extreme but no less emphatic.
My point was that I don't think it's a good idea to place undue emphasis on the placebo when you're prepping people for the experiment.
I ... Don't recall Nope saying anything other than what I have. My track record is poor though, and we understand each other, so we're good.
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Worth it. Worth every second to be able to look down and not see a horrible bulge.
*nod nod* Buy bikini bottoms.
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How different is the physiology? Pretty different. Different number of limbs, body shape, arrangement of organs. A biologist forced to classify her by earth standards wouldn't put her in with mammals by any stretch of the imagination, though they'd probably through a conniption fit if you suggested that she be lumped in with the insects (her closest appearance analogue) due to things like the internal skeleton, endothermia, and general internal chemical and physiological similarities with birds. Psychologically she's quite different as well, having sometimes unpredictable fear or anger responses and having a much stronger need for interpersonal contact. Her sense of humor is somewhat surrealist, and she just can't get her head around the ideas of money, acting, and certain facets of the education system among others.
Sign me up when you start writing. Sounds good.
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Really? I know for me, if I wanted to ignore my genitals, I would do anything but put pressure on them, because then I'd be constantly aware of them.
Though I seem to acclimate to constant sensory inputs less than normal people.
On the topic of uncomfortable crotch experiences, today it rained while I was in class and the seat of my bike got wet.
It's not that bad, really. The trouble isn't the pressure, it's all the fiddle bits interacting with gravity.
An I carry a plastic grocery bag in my bak pack for just such. Sometimes two, so Ivan either take it off for the ride home (thus leaving the bat onto prevent further raining) or to switch em.
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golentan
Hmm... My gal recently discovered some trick involving women's briefs which she said works better with tucking and comfort than things she had tried before.
Oh neat. Which ones are briefs? I kinda... Lost track of what is what.
And the only source of info comes from cosplay sites of all places, with some very... Uh... Interesting advice. On the upside, they have the enefit of being able to pee while sitting down, which they list a a plus. On the downside, there is Saran wrap involved.
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She said it involved using a bit of medical tape to keep things in place, then just putting ordinary lady's briefs on over it.
Hm. Nuts. That sounds painful or itchy, depending on level of shavery.pun unintentional.
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Mynxae
*hugs to anyone I missed* :smallsmile:
*cheeky flirts to anyone who wants them* :smallredface:
Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. :smallsmile: And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!
-end rant :smallbiggrin:
I could go on but I'd rather not be mean and shove my happiness down everyone's throats. That has happened to me way too much before now. :smallannoyed:
SO! How is everybody?! :smallbiggrin:
Not bad. Kinda blegh but I'll sleep it off.
The warmth is fom the psychometabolism that keeps him skinny. :smallsmile:
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*Hugs* for everyone.
EDIT: And congratulations, Mynxae!
@Astrelia/Absol- Everything you said I feel completely.
I had another therapy session today. The appointment itself was still great, but afterwards as I was walking home, thinking about all the obstacles that still remain to transition, all the things and people I could lose in the process, and how utterly wrong my body felt just hit me like a gargantuan wave. I got back to my apartment and spent an hour just cuddling my Rarity plushie and styling her mane while watching my roommate play video games to distract myself (once I'd calmed sown enough to not be on the verge of tears.) Thankfully, he didn't really question it.
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For me, the minor glimpses of dysphoria are like a kind of nausea that I get when I contemplate my male bits or look too closely in a mirror at my unconquerable scraggle. The sudden acute bouts feel like I'm turning into grotesque sludge and am falling slowly into an inescapable pit of blackness as my form slowly loses coherence. Paradoxically, my is more and more present and disgusting even as I imagine it slowly disintegrating into ooze.
Aye. I find the best thing is just not to let any of those thoughts in. They breed.
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I tried tucking a few times today. Felt great, but without anything to hold things in place, it doesn't last long, and feels worse when it fails
Seriously, bikini bottoms.
Girl underwear is contoured differently because it's not designed to accommodate certain man bits. Girl swimwear is designe to be even more skin tight. You'll have to lay down to get it set up though. Tie on the sides is best.
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Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. :smallsmile: And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!
My reasoning on how men are so warm is that they have an internal heating system, much like you'd have in a house. Those who are less warm have student housing style heating, but most have good warms generators inside them.
They can also turn these on and off at will if they want to annoy you with colds. :smalltongue:
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My reasoning on how men are so warm is that they have an internal heating system, much like you'd have in a house. Those who are less warm have student housing style heating, but most have good warms generators inside them.
We call it "metabolism". :smalltongue:
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Being aware of it basically opened up the floodgates for me I guess. Usually it's like a small nagging voice in the bag of my head, draining, but can be ignored. But the sudden moments that arrive without warning are awful; like I'm slowly sinking away in a pool of pure black with tendrils crawling up my skin giving me shivers and making me panicky and nervous and just wanting to run and hide forever.....
I can't even imagine how crazy (not mental, but more shifted) it feels to be male, but want to be female and how hard it must be, for all of you beautiful people, who are feeling the same way. And visa verse for males who were born into females bodies.
This is one of those things that I will never understand, nor think could I, but I hear people talk about it with such emotion and energy, and feeling their discomfort and yearning through their words, I can at least support and do my best to give them a loving environment in which to find themselves. I may not understand it, but I'll be damned if I am going to shun someone for something they can't help. With that said, Hugs for all of you wonderful, gorgeous people who need them.......and yes, despite what the outside holds, you are ALL gorgeous.
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My reasoning on how men are so warm is that they have an internal heating system, much like you'd have in a house. Those who are less warm have student housing style heating, but most have good warms generators inside them.
They can also turn these on and off at will if they want to annoy you with colds. :smalltongue:
I haven't quite mastered that yet, but everyone I give hugs to IRL always comments on how warm my hugs are, despite how cold I come across...:smallsmile:
Hugs for everyone! *hugs thread*
Oh and Good for you Mynxae! Hold onto him and suck all that warmth in.
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Lying next to a cat is warming for both body and soul.
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/chuckles Thanks everyone. Wish he could come over for cuddles right now. I'd get to sleep easier. :smallannoyed:
Though I'll be seeing him tomorrow or the next day for a sleepover so I'm happy :smallsmile:
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Asta Kask
Lying next to a cat is warming for both body and soul.
It's true. (feat: healing chi)
Me and some of my friends are gonna be trying to find a DM for an awakened cats vs. commoners game. I'm Nyan Cat, we have Schrödinger's Cat(flavored as half undead, result of the local mad alchemist), and a monster class version of the Cheshire Cat.
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supernerd
It's true. (feat: healing chi)
Me and some of my friends are gonna be trying to find a DM for an awakened cats vs. commoners game. I'm Nyan Cat, we have Schrödinger's Cat(flavored as half undead, result of the local mad alchemist), and a monster class version of the Cheshire Cat.
That's the best thing I've ever heard.......:smallbiggrin:
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SiuiS
It's not that bad, really. The trouble isn't the pressure, it's all the fiddle bits interacting with gravity.
Guess it varies person to person. On the bright side, I never have to tuck. I find that type of position very uncomfortable. I can't even sit with my legs crossed "the female way". For reference this is what I mean:
What does it say about humanity that all I had to type in was "crossed legs" and every picture was of women crossing their legs?
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An I carry a plastic grocery bag in my bak pack for just such. Sometimes two, so Ivan either take it off for the ride home (thus leaving the bat onto prevent further raining) or to switch em.
Probably a good idea, but I don't carry a bag most days, just the notebook for whichever class I have at that time. I only have one back-to-back and the second doesn't require a notebook.
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Oh neat. Which ones are briefs? I kinda... Lost track of what is what.
And the only source of info comes from cosplay sites of all places, with some very... Uh... Interesting advice. On the upside, they have the enefit of being able to pee while sitting down, which they list a a plus. On the downside, there is Saran wrap involved.
Women's briefs: (I assume this doesn't count as a nude picture? It's a stock image from a site that sells underwear, I think.)
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Originally Posted by
supernerd
It's true. (feat: healing chi)
Me and some of my friends are gonna be trying to find a DM for an awakened cats vs. commoners game. I'm Nyan Cat, we have Schrödinger's Cat(flavored as half undead, result of the local mad alchemist), and a monster class version of the Cheshire Cat.
I loved that one. So much better than the gelatinous cube monk, or the thirty-headed Tarasque. Your game sounds excellent.
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supernerd
It's true. (feat: healing chi)
Me and some of my friends are gonna be trying to find a DM for an awakened cats vs. commoners game. I'm Nyan Cat, we have Schrödinger's Cat(flavored as half undead, result of the local mad alchemist), and a monster class version of the Cheshire Cat.
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Celtic_D&Der
That's the best thing I've ever heard.......:smallbiggrin:
I once played a cat burglar who was a cat with a built in laser pointer.
It did about 6d6 damage a turn. More if I charged mah lazor first. Plus more from sneak attack.
That was a fun game. I am sad it broke.
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noparlpf
Those are full briefs. Normal briefs are what I wear, and look more like this:
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Heliomance
Those are full briefs. Normal briefs are what I wear, and look more like this:
Both count as "briefs". There are a few different subvarieties.
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Celtic_D&Der
That's the best thing I've ever heard.......:smallbiggrin:
And we might be getting a cleric of some egyptian deity to be our healer an our Armored Kitteh!
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Lix Lorn
I once played a cat burglar who was a cat with a built in laser pointer.
It did about 6d6 damage a turn. More if I charged mah lazor first. Plus more from sneak attack.
That was a fun game. I am sad it broke.
That sounds wonderful. Absolutely marvelous!
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noparlpf
Guess it varies person to person. On the bright side, I never have to tuck. I find that type of position very uncomfortable. I can't even sit with my legs crossed "the female way". For reference this is what I mean:
What does it say about humanity that all I had to type in was "crossed legs" and every picture was of women crossing their legs?
I am honestly more interested in why that image is listed under "health mistakes".
That's not so bad pending weight and pelvis position. I suspect it's the leanness of my thighs what allows me to sit like that, along with pelvic angle and genital positioning. Though I prefer to fold upward rather than down, yes.
EDIT: ah, it's a circulation issue. That makes sense.
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Probably a good idea, but I don't carry a bag most days, just the notebook for whichever class I have at that time. I only have one back-to-back and the second doesn't require a notebook.
Call me lazy, but I hate having to bike with something in my hands. I'll do it, but if it's an everyday thing I will at least bring a handkerchief to wrap it up to the handlebars with.
You could also rubber band a plastic bag to the bottom of the seat. Kind of the Altoids tin survival kit, da?
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Women's briefs: (I assume this doesn't count as a nude picture? It's a stock image from a site that sells underwear, I think.)
Okay, yeah. I was thinking shorts of some variety.
Welp! Just gotta he up the nerve to buy some >_>
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SiuiS
I am honestly more interested in why that image is listed under "health mistakes".
That's not so bad pending weight and pelvis position. I suspect it's the leanness of my thighs what allows me to sit like that, along with pelvic angle and genital positioning. Though I prefer to fold upward rather than down, yes.
EDIT: ah, it's a circulation issue. That makes sense.
I have largeish thighs, I guess, and everything just feels crushed.
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Call me lazy, but I hate having to bike with something in my hands. I'll do it, but if it's an everyday thing I will at least bring a handkerchief to wrap it up to the handlebars with.
You could also rubber band a plastic bag to the bottom of the seat. Kind of the Altoids tin survival kit, da?
That would require finding a rubber band, but that's a good idea. I'll try it.
I'm not a fan of briefs. Especially the female sort, but even the male sort with a bit more room.
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I actually find sitting without my legs crossed uncomfortable; I just get do it without feeling uneasy.
Also congrats, Mynxae! :smallsmile:
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Aye, I find sitting with my legs crossed very comfortable, I do it all the time naturally.
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My Adam's Apple Does Not Define Me; this is a pretty cool video. Standard advice to stay clear of the comments though. >.>
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Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)
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noparlpf
Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)
Hm hm, I'm aware of that. :smalltongue:
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I'm actually rather lucky on that note: I usually can't even find my adam's apple normally. I have to feel for it to find out where it is.
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I'm actually rather lucky on that note: I usually can't even find my adam's apple normally. I have to feel for it to find out where it is.
Same, actually.
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I'm cis, but mine is fairly small/non-protrusive.
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GUYSGUYSGUYS :smallbiggrin:
My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover :smalltongue:). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it :smalltongue:) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second :smalltongue:)~ X3
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Mynxae
Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. :smallsmile: And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!
X3 *Hugs~*
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Selpharia
*Hugs* for everyone.
EDIT: And congratulations, Mynxae!
@Astrelia/Absol- Everything you said I feel completely.
I had another therapy session today. The appointment itself was still great, but afterwards as I was walking home, thinking about all the obstacles that still remain to transition, all the things and people I could lose in the process, and how utterly wrong my body felt just hit me like a gargantuan wave. I got back to my apartment and spent an hour just cuddling my Rarity plushie and styling her mane while watching my roommate play video games to distract myself (once I'd calmed sown enough to not be on the verge of tears.) Thankfully, he didn't really question it.
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For me, the minor glimpses of dysphoria are like a kind of nausea that I get when I contemplate my male bits or look too closely in a mirror at my unconquerable scraggle. The sudden acute bouts feel like I'm turning into grotesque sludge and am falling slowly into an inescapable pit of blackness as my form slowly loses coherence. Paradoxically, my is more and more present and disgusting even as I imagine it slowly disintegrating into ooze.
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Pretty ,much identical to Absol and Astrelia, except I managed to additionally persuade myself that emotion and empathy were weaknesses and that I was naturally superior to those who allowed such things. It feels like I've hidden behind a steel mask of callous indifference for so long that it melded with my face. It's so hard to remove, and when I do, it means horrible pain as some of my face comes with it. Things are slowly getting better, but it does feel like I haven't let myself freely feel for so long that when I do it's like a flood.
I tried tucking a few times today. Felt great, but without anything to hold things in place, it doesn't last long, and feels worse when it fails
*Hugs!*
~Bianca
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Arachu
GUYSGUYSGUYS :smallbiggrin:
My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover :smalltongue:). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it :smalltongue:) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second :smalltongue:)~ X3
X3 *Hugs~*
*Hugs!*
~Bianca
AWESOME! Go you!
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Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. :smallbiggrin: You guys are amazing *cuddles*
He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him. :smallannoyed:
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Mynxae
Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. :smallbiggrin: You guys are amazing *cuddles*
He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him. :smallannoyed:
Is it any easier to sleep when you're actually using him as a pillow rather than an ordinary pillow smelling like him? Or does that make it even harder? I really hope the latter, that's how fun starts.
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golentan
Is it any easier to sleep when you're actually using him as a pillow rather than an ordinary pillow smelling like him? Or does that make it even harder? I really hope the latter, that's how fun starts.
You sly dog :smallwink:
He's sleeping over either tonight or tomorrow night. My roommate is having his family over tonight and his stepdad is a little homophobic or something, so he can't stay over if they sleep over. But it isn't confirmed if they're sleeping over or not. :smallannoyed:
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Arachu
GUYSGUYSGUYS :smallbiggrin:
My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover :smalltongue:). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it :smalltongue:) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second :smalltongue:)~ X3
X3 *Hugs~*
*Hugs!*
~Bianca
That's really great! I'm especially glad your aunt is so supportive. I remember from a few threads ago that you have really pretty hair, so I'm sure it'll look even more beautiful (and jealousy inducing :smalltongue: ) once you're done. The poor shop clerk must have been confused, I'm sure he'll pick correctly next time.
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Mynxae
You sly dog :smallwink:
He's sleeping over either tonight or tomorrow night. My roommate is having his family over tonight and his stepdad is a little homophobic or something, so he can't stay over if they sleep over. But it isn't confirmed if they're sleeping over or not. :smallannoyed:
That's frustrating. You'd think plans would be far enough along that he would know so he could let you know. I hate that that sort of thing breaks down because family.
Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.
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SaintRidley
We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.
Cake is the only real reason to do anything.
Seriously. Name one thing not made better by cake.
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^: Well there's the obligatory lies and jokes and references thereof. :smallwink:
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noparlpf
I have largeish thighs, I guess, and everything just feels crushed.
I can't wear women's pants or skinny jeans or do that for probably the same reason, ja.
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noparlpf
I'm not a fan of briefs. Especially the female sort, but even the male sort with a bit more room.
Boxer-briefs are king in my book.
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SaintRidley
Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.
Funnily enough, all of the wedding officiating types that I've known have always given out the advice to elope and if there needs to be something for the family to just have a reception/party celebrating the wedding.
Also congratulations and good luck.
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Lentrax
Cake is the only real reason to do anything.
Seriously. Name one thing not made better by cake.
A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.
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SaintRidley
That's frustrating. You'd think plans would be far enough along that he would know so he could let you know. I hate that that sort of thing breaks down because family.
Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.
Congratulations. :smallbiggrin:
Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!
I get cuddles tonight. c:
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golentan
A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.
Ah, but there it makes you stronger for having resisted and become inured to cake.
Really, everyone should become inured to cake. For pie is the true siren of the pastry kingdom.
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Mynxae
Congratulations. :smallbiggrin:
Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!
I get cuddles tonight. c:
See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.
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Mynxae
Congratulations. :smallbiggrin:
Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!
I get cuddles tonight. c:
Awesome. Enjoy failing to get adequate sleep.
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SaintRidley
See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.
Definitely so my friend!
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golentan
Awesome. Enjoy failing to get adequate sleep.
He'll be tired though, 'cause he's been at Dreamworld all today with his Uncle.. Doesn't mean I won't try to stop him from sleeping. :smallwink:
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Okay, seriously. What is with my sexuality lately? My libido's all over the place, my interests are all over the place, I'm just so confused. I found myself desperately attracted to a muscle man with a lot of stubble earlier, and that's always been kind of the antithesis of the type of guy I go for. And my response to women has been equally baffling...
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golentan
Okay, seriously. What is with my sexuality lately? My libido's all over the place, my interests are all over the place, I'm just so confused. I found myself desperately attracted to a muscle man with a lot of stubble earlier, and that's always been kind of the antithesis of the type of guy I go for. And my response to women has been equally baffling...
Fluctuating tastes happen sometimes. I've noticed that since I generally go for personality over looks, there are times where I'll get to know a guy who's nowhere near my usual type and find myself attracted to him once we hang out and talk a bit, when if I'd just passed him in the street or seen a picture or something I wouldn't have given him a second glance or even thought "eew, no."
This can be somewhat problematic at times, such as when this happened with my sophomore-year roommate in college. My group of close friends and I had been getting to know each other over the course of the year, gradually going from 4 guys to over 12 as the year went on, and everyone decided that we'd pair up as roommates for the next year; I decided to pick the guy I knew least and felt least attracted to avoid any potential issues. Then, of course, we went from chatting after class a few times a week to spending hours and hours together every day and sharing two classes, and whaddya know, suddenly...well, 'twas a long year.
As to your tastes in women, can't help you there. Women are weird. My sister tells me so, so it must be true. :smallbiggrin:
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noparlpf
I have largeish thighs, I guess, and everything just feels crushed.
I want larger thighs, if that's any consolation. It well, more roundess all arous, rather.
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That would require finding a rubber band, but that's a good idea. I'll try it.
The worst part of my workday on Friday was that I couldn't find a pink paper clip.
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I'm not a fan of briefs. Especially the female sort, but even the male sort with a bit more room.
I've moved from boxers to more form-fitting brief. After some issues with body heat loosening the fabric, I went from boxer-briefs to bikini briefs. I needed a minimum of support and consistency I just wasn't getting, and jumping fences and running and kicking and such were painfully unhealthy.
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noparlpf
Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)
Isn't there an anatomical difference between laryngeal cartilage and an adam's apple? The Adams apple is specifically the external bulging in the middle of the larynx; a large larynx itself would be unfortunate but not an Adams apple. Or so I thought.
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Arachu
GUYSGUYSGUYS :smallbiggrin:
My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover :smalltongue:). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it :smalltongue:) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second :smalltongue:)~ X3
Hot darn! That's totally cool. I didn't know your aunt was in on the gig?
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Mynxae
Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. :smallbiggrin: You guys are amazing *cuddles*
They are quite a swell gaggle.
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He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him. :smallannoyed:
Aw, that's cute you're at the pillow scent enjoying phase. Thats one of the best phases.
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golentan
A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.
But without the cake tempting you, is not your resolve less tested?
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SaintRidley
See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.
Need more signature space.
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Arachu
GUYSGUYSGUYS :smallbiggrin:
My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover :smalltongue:). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it :smalltongue:) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second :smalltongue:)~ X3
~Bianca
You have a very cool aunt. Be sure to tell her that.
Tell her that the Internet approves.
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First of all, hugs for anyone who wants them.
Second of all, I've been having an... interesting couple of weeks. In a good way. Very good way. I now have a cuddlebuddy, who is wonderful and amazing and always makes sure I'm comfortable and is just the best. Apparently I'm adorable and rather attractive, which are not things I would ever have ascribed to myself of my own accord. :smallredface: But she thinks so, which is what matters. Lots of cuddles and kisses are being had, and they are great.
I hope that doesn't sounds gloating, and apologise deeply if it does.
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SiuiS
But without the cake tempting you, is not your resolve less tested?
If your resolve remains untested, how can you truly be proud of your resistance?
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SaintRidley
Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.
Congratulations! Sounds crazy stressful. Hopefully after it's done you can relax a bit.
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SiuiS
I've moved from boxers to more form-fitting brief. After some issues with body heat loosening the fabric, I went from boxer-briefs to bikini briefs. I needed a minimum of support and consistency I just wasn't getting, and jumping fences and running and kicking and such were painfully unhealthy.
I find boxers a comfortable middle ground between uncomfortably crushed and uncomfortably loose.
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Isn't there an anatomical difference between laryngeal cartilage and an adam's apple? The Adams apple is specifically the external bulging in the middle of the larynx; a large larynx itself would be unfortunate but not an Adams apple. Or so I thought.
Well, the two bits of the male larynx form a sharper angle than the same bits in females, which also affects it. The little bulge is present in females, but shallower and smaller.
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Could be worse. Could be an Adam's watermelon or Adam's pineapple. No jokes about Adam's banana please. We're civilised people in this thread.
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Firstly big yay! for all the good news lately :smallbiggrin:
Re: Adam's appples and such - I'm currently trying to find a surgeon to do a tracheal shave to reduce mine as it is very prominent. My understanding is that as noparlpf said it's to do with the angle of the join. Reduction surgery tins it out a little on the inside so it sits flatter against the rest of the neck.
On a different topic:
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Brak got the butt!
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also, me the most femme I've ever been:
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Shoes aren't the greatest (they're growing on me as my first girl shoes though, lol), but they were only a tenner and confirmed that I am, in fact, a size 10 - I was looking through the kmart for something I could buy cheaply to test out when someone asked if I needed help finding anything. I replied that I knew the style "but just eneded to find it in my size..."
Cue awkward pause and them thnakfully assuming it was just a slip of the tongue on my part :smallredface:
(well it was technically)
Was going to do some more shopping today but I saw someone in the store who I'm not out to so made a quick strategic withdrawl before they saw me.
So yeah, shaved my legs for the first time today - took an hour and a half O_o but I did manag to avoid slicing off anything too important though :smallamused:
Did it whilst my ipod was on shuffle - first song that came on was Time Warp, second was YMCA, third was Vogue (fourth was Sound of Eight Hooves, though). After the struggle to reach the backs of my thighs I finally understand why so many women do yoga. Feeling very positive after a somewhat average couple of weeks of bad dysphoria and general blerg about life.
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Re: LGBTAitp 27: Of Shoes, and Ships, and Sealing Wax
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Zorg
Re: Adam's appples and such - I'm currently trying to find a surgeon to do a tracheal shave to reduce mine as it is very prominent. My understanding is that as noparlpf said it's to do with the angle of the join. Reduction surgery tins it out a little on the inside so it sits flatter against the rest of the neck.
It's the angle and the size in general.
I really hope I never need surgery for anything. I won't be able to look at the incision until years after it's healed and scarred. I'm too squeamish to even think about it.
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So yeah, shaved my legs for the first time today - took an hour and a half O_o but I did manag to avoid slicing off anything too important though :smallamused:
Did it whilst my ipod was on shuffle - first song that came on was Time Warp, second was YMCA, third was Vogue (fourth was
Sound of Eight Hooves, though). After the struggle to reach the backs of my thighs I finally understand why so many women do yoga. Feeling very positive after a somewhat average couple of weeks of bad dysphoria and general blerg about life.
:smallsmile:
I'm pretty damn inflexible (at tae kwon do last week at the first session, some people came in skinny jeans and were still more flexible than I was) and if I need to I can reach the backs of my legs fine. Sitting down. If I were trying to shave my legs in a shower I'd be basically screwed due to near-blindness and inflexibility. Good thing I don't shave my legs.