Originally Posted by
Gnrlshrimp
[Post-Invasion River Bank]
Nobody can control when those deadtime things happen.
That's what you wanted to hear, right Ithuriel? You know it's not your own fault, you've always known it's not your fault but you just couldn't forgive yourself. You're meant to be an angel of forgiveness and you couldn't find it in you to forgive yourself for something you had no control over? Really?
But it doesn't matter now, right? He's forgiven you! So it's all fine!
...why isn't it fine?
Well maybe he's just being nice. Maybe he really is hurt and he's just hiding that to make you feel better? Maybe he actually still thinks you're a horrible person, maybe he thinks you're going to abandon him again immediately and then it'll be so much worse and does he even really need your help anyway? Look at him, he's trying to help in his own way, maybe he never needed your help to change his ways and was always going to-
No. No no no NO NO! Why aren't you fine, Ithuriel? Why can't you just let it go? Just let it go! STOP BEING SO-
...
It's probably a good thing Ambriel is hugging her right now so he can't see the expression her face makes as her overcharged conscience wages war internally with a weak but defiant common sense. He'll still feel her shaking though, perhaps be able to hear the slight sniffle as she tries to keep herself from sobbing.
Why are you an angel anyway? You know you're no good at this. You can't help anyone! The one person you though you'd helped went and helped himself without you! Really, what did you expect to happen? Did you think you were just going to fly in here and he'd be crying about how hard it is to be a nice guy instead of mean, selfish old Magtok and-
Is this even healthy for her? Well, she's sort of committed to it now, hasn't she? She reciprocates the hug, holding Ambriel tightly (but not too tightly! She's learning!) and even leaning over to give him a very quick kiss on the lips. "I think the line between duty and affection got blurred in my mind long ago. You're still that same awkward guy who couldn't quite decide if he was terrified or not." She chuckles lightly, straight back to acting like the big strong angel with absolutely no inner turmoil that she totally is. "So, hey, you got a team? You mean there's more of you quirky, rebellious 'toks out there? Do I get to meet them? Uh, hey, actually there's a thought. Is it awkward if I refer to you as a Magtok in any way, Wings? Does your team have new, edgy, aggressively anti-Magtok names or something?"