Spoiler: Flashback: Expectations
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About Six Years Ago:
She is showing off the new jutsu she invented, the Ink Explosive Tag Formation Jutsu, it took her a lot of work, time and effort to make it work, but it did: she threw the paper shuriken at the target then formed the hand signs rapidly to shape the chakra she charged into it to form into an explosive seal folded within the shuriken then used the snake seal while saying
"Release!" to make it explode as it hits the target.
Her entire family gaped. That was a paper shuriken folded by one of her family members, and had no prior ink on it. She had just converted earth and water chakra into ink then shaped it into a complex series of finely calculated ink strokes that normally need a careful hand and patience for minutes if not hours to brush, making a paper shuriken in flight become an explosive tag in seconds then detonated it. This is insane. This is like figuring out how to just create grenades in the middle of battle out of thin air to them. The energy requirements are actually pretty low, its the fact that to be so precise in shaping and manipulating the ink like that so fast, that your memory and skill would have to be unbelievable. You'd have to be....
"...A genius." one says breathing in awe.
"She has to be" says another "The technique in application is simple- just making an explosive tag on the spot where there wasn't any before- but the actual work and brainpower needed to pull it off..."
"Agreed, I don't think I could do the same, fuinjutsu isn't done fast for a reason. One minor mistake with a seal, and it doesn't work."
"She just made a new jutsu that only someone with an incredible memory can pull off. At age six. What in kami's name will she able to do when she is an adult? There is great potential here."
She smiles and basks in the praise, her mother even comes up to her and says
"My daughter....I'm so proud of you. So young and your already exceeding expectations!" Yes! her mother was proud of her too! But the next words dropped a weight on her.
"Your already proving that you'll make a great clan leader when you someday take over! Perhaps you''ll even become Otokage someday!"
What? When did it become about that!? About those? She just wanted to improve her fighting style, to experiment, to make something enemies wouldn't expect! How did it turn into something about positions?
In class, Four Years ago:
Next she is in class, their academy instructor saying
"Okay, class I'll be teaching you all how to do the first most basic technique: transformation jutsu."
He forms the hand signs and transforms into a cute dog. Then turns back
"Now that you saw the technique in action, as this is your first ninjutsu, I will walk you through it hand sign by hand sign-"
"Like this?" Kimiko says flashing through the hand signs and turning into a cute dog as well, barking once or twice then turning back. The instructor is left speechless for a moment
"Kimiko....is....is this your first time doing this technique?"
He knew that noble ninjas had more of an education, but this?
"Yes." she answers honestly.
"...Incredible! Students, look a good look, for you gazing upon a shining beacon of the Generation of Hope! With genius and talent like that, who knows what great things she will do in this new era!?"
She feels more weight press down upon her, where did that come from!?
After School, Two Years ago:
Her mother is having a talk with her academy instructor while she sits to the side.
"Has she done something bad?" Mitsuko asks
"Not all, Ishikawa-Sama, Kimiko-chan here is well-behaved in class and gets the highest grades in it. Which is what I want to talk to you about: she is so good at what she does, that I'm not sure what to teach her next. She grasps the material, the techniques, the history, more easily than anyone! I'm not sure what to do with her aside from keeping her practicing."
"How is that something worth my time?"
"Ishikawa-Sama, have you considered that she might needs bumping up in grades, so to speak? She is a prodigy of like that we haven't seen in years, maybe not since the Three Sound Legends. Her potential is wasted just learning at the same pace as other students. Perhaps you should talk with the Otokage about her becoming a Genin early at the very least. She has a great future ahead of her, she should be put on the fast track towards it!"
What? Why? What does everyone see in her? All she wanted to do was learn all the jutsu she could, and study chakra.
At home:
Jirou returns home and Mitsuko asks him, Kimiko eating rice while she overhears.
"Well? what did the Otokage say to my proposal?"
"He said no, Okasan, citing that this was an age of peace, and that we no longer need to fast track geniuses like that. He said that if she has such great potential, that she should stay at her own grade to form better friendships and connections with them, as these are people her own age she will be working with her entire life. That if she is truly to be a clan leader, it would be good of her to develop her social skills so as to better lead."
"What!? But think of what she could learn from being Genin now, getting the experience, making Chuunin or even Jounin! She could be well ahead of the curve!"
"The Otokage won't budge on this, Okasan. And to be fair, I agree with him. she has great potential, but that won't mean anything if she can't form any connections with anyone. A village is only strong because we fight together, and great figures are great because they have made many people under them raising them upwards, supporting them until the great figure is only a face seen on top of an invisible mountain of people they stand upon. You know this."
"Sigh, as much as pains me to say it, your right, she is lacking in her social skills. We need to start her working on that right away."
Mitsuko turns to her as if now just noticing her presence. "Hear that? I'm sorry you couldn't get into being a Genin early, but your going to be clan leader someday! You'll have to learn more than just ninja techniques. Try making some friends at school tomorrow."
"but...I'm bad at speaking to people....Okasan...."
"Nonsense! Your a genius! I'm sure you'll succeed once you put your mind to it!"
At School:
Kimiko approaches a group of kids in her class, nervously waving and saying
"H-Hi!"
They turn to her and instantly frown.
"Oh, so the high and mighty Ishikawa clan heiress finally deigns to speaks to us common kids, huh?"
"What?" where did this come from!?
"Don't act dumb! My dad says that noble clans only speak to use people as their puppets!"
"Yeah, she probably just wants to rope us into doing her dirty work!"
"Yeah go away, teachers pet!"
"What? no! thats not it at all! I just want to be friends!"
"Yeah, whatever we all know what noble clans do to their "friends." in the end."
"Did you get bored of soaking up praise from adults? go back to your stupid books, nerd."
"Why else would she ignore us for so long only to speak to us now? You never paid attention to us before, so clearly you just want something from us. Go away."
"But...but..." when did the conversation get so out of control?
"she can't even deny it! Look she is crying!"
"didn't know nobles could do that!"
"Lets beat her up for all those times she won in sparring practice! Bet she can't take us three on one while crying!"
Her sadness turns to anger as they begin to attack. A few minutes later, the three kids are beaten up while she stands over them with only a single black eye, having won with some effort.
"Now will you listen to me!?"
"Huh, just like a noble to expect anyone to listen to them after beating people up."
"Bet you think your so much better than us! screw off, we don't want to be any "friends" of you."
"Yeah, beat it! We're telling our parents about this!"
She breaks down crying again and runs home. Turns out beating people up is a bad way to make friends.
At home:
Mitsuko sees her daughters crying face and asks
"What happened, Kimi-chan?"
Through sobs, she told her.
"...and....and...I failed!"
Mitsukos face darkens and she says
"You did not fail, those kids were clearly commoners, and they do not understand what our life is like, and thus were never going to be friends with you. The common people do not understand the sacrifices we make to protect them. They do not understand the measures we must make to ensure better future for you and everyone. We are Clan Ishikawa. We are above their petty concerns, their brutish ways and attitudes, because we are like any civilized person and they clearly weren't civilized. This is simply apart of the risks of our birth, and you must learn to take it in stride and find the ones who will appreciate your position for what it is and know their own position in turn. For you are a born winner and every winner must find their group of second placers to help them along their journey, their nakama or friends if you will. To take adversity in stride so that it never breaks you and be like iron in your convictions. I'm so proud that you were able to defeat all three of them! You did well."
Kimiko could only think: But why, why must she be the sole winner? why can't she just be....equal?Why can't she just be who she wants to be?
"Worry not about those children. I'll take care of them."
A Few weeks later:
She didn't see the three kids at school today. Curious she goes looking, and sees that their houses were empty. So she follows the trail until shes them and their civilian families leaving, fear on their faces as her mother, Mitsuko grins widely, her shark teeth showing as she waves goodbye to them.
As they leave, Kimiko comes up to her mother, confused.
"What....what is happening? why are they moving out?"
"Oh! Kimi-chan. Those families just decided that they'd rather live in another city. Quite reasonable of them after that little incident no?"
"You....you convinced them to do that? How?"
Mitsuko ruffles her hair "Oh, Kimi-chan, your mother can be very persuasive when she needs to be! Especially when my darling daughter is hurt by their improper raising of their children. How rude of them to interrupt my daughters efforts at greatness by gathering friends to support her future by failing to raise theirs. Tsk tsk tsk."
"They were afraid of you as if you.....did you use Killing Intent on them to get them to leave!?"
Mitsuko chuckles "heh. Nothing slips past you eh? Already seeing underneath the underneath, you exceed expectations again and again. They were civvie families, would never have encountered that trick, its for the best that they're scared off, as if they would've ever made good shinobi. Which reminds me, we should start you on Killing Intent defense lessons next week, the more you build up a resistance to that early, the better."
Kimiko doesn't know what to say, feeling only a weight fall upon her as she realizes that she can't let an incident like that happen ever again. She must be strong in the face of adversity.
The Garden:
Kimiko sits in the garden of the Ishikawa family, the pond being filled by the bamboo seesaw thing that every home has because it looks elegant or something, tired from the constant social facade she had to put up every day at school to keep her out of trouble. Jirou sits beside her.
"Problems?"
"No. No problems at all, I am strong, because I'm an Ishikawa, a shinobi and I do not feel. As weapons should."
"I'm only your brother, Kimiko. You do not have to put a mask on for me."
"...Okay. Truth is, I'm feeling....weighed down, pressured. Like everyone expects great things of me. Its...chaining, binding. Suffocating. I'm the heiress, a noble, a genius, I'm praised constantly for all that I do yet...it all feels too much, I don't feel as if it empowers me."
Jirou considers this.
"Well, you don't have to worry about that with me. I'm the clan disappointment! no paper release, just Water affinity. I know how bull it is. But some people like with kekkai genkai, or with money, or noble lineage or whatever, are just born with a greater advantage than others through no fault of their own. No matter how much I dislike it, I was born lesser than you, and my place is to support you on your path to greatness. But people are still people even when they have a greater "place", I think. That just because one is "greater", doesn't mean one is "better" than other people, you get what I mean? That your still like everyone else in that your a person with feelings that no amount of expectations or position will get or capture. You just....start closer to the top of the hill while everyone else is at the bottom, and you get a different view from that angle, y'know?"
She raises an eyebrow
"I THINK I get what you mean..."
"Heh, you don't have to, just....be a good person okay? And just be yourself around me, let some of the pressure off. You spend all day being Heiress to so many people. Let yourself be you when you need it without expectations, or its going to destroy you."
"....Thanks brother."
For once, the weight lifts and she feels light as air.
Finally she remembers yesterday. The ultimate expectation. A criminal taken. A man murdered. A paper blade bloodied by her hand. A death celebrated, a sword given. The realization of what the nature of what being a shinobi entails. It still gives her chills, and a weight greater than all the ones before it presses down upon her mind.