Companion story time! This was written from Nycca's perspective. Certain elements, like the story and chapter titles, are references to the music I feel fits the tone of the story, and listening to it may augment the experience.
Originally Posted by C'nor
Dreams and Nightmares Nycca Eat Nothing
Entry I - pale grey and dripping saline
Talina said I should start writing in a journal.
Writing is easier than talking.
Talking lets everyone know your voice is thin and cracked.
Talking makes everyone start fussing over you when you just want to be left alone.
It's always well-intentioned and it makes sense to them. "Nycca, won't you have some applesauce?" "Nycca, you're shivering, do you need a blanket?"
I don't want to eat and I don't care if I shiver or not. If they give me food I'll sneak it to Lenia---she's as skinny as I am and her metabolism is probably higher.
If they give me a blanket I'll wait until nobody's looking and put it back in the linen closet or whatever.
And they'll just keep giving me nice things I don't need or want because they don't understand what I've been trying to tell them:
I'm done. I'm exhausted with life. I don't feel any need to keep going, especially now that the other girls are safe. Sherry's got her smile back and Marina's shoulder is healing and that's great and I'm happy for them but I don't want to stick around here. Here there's aches and tiredness and nightmares.
There's nothing I want in this world.
Entry II - crawl space girl
Okay, maybe I should have considered that Talina and the others might read what I wrote before I went and spilled my guts to the paper, because here I am hooked up to an IV of protein and calcium and whatever most of the time.
Talina admittedly has been pretty cool about this whole thing apart from forcing an IV on me; she wasn't angry or offended, she just sat with me a while and asked me if I'd like to come downstairs to spend some time with her and the other girls.
Of course, I didn't, but it was nice of her to ask.
Sherry's decided to sleep next to me until these nightmares stop being such a problem, which is exactly the kind of sweet thing Sherry would do. I told her it was fine and she shouldn't trouble herself, but it's not like that's ever stopped her before.
Kirlia: Good overall, but there's something about it that feels a little bit rote and old-horse (not to the level of being a dead horse for the beating, however); note, however, that doesn't mean it can't be good.
NLD: I liked this one, especially with him having discovered an empty bowling alley to live in. Bowling alleys are awesome, and the way Justin thinks within the Nexus environment is natural.