Ouch. That couldn't have felt good. Gad you came out of it improved though. Have they let you try DM'ing since then?
1. That was.... 7 years ago. I was 14.
2. I don't play with that group any more. Haven't in a LOOOOOONG time.
3. I don't play. I DM. I've not been a consistent player in.... 9+ years.
So... yes.
All that I say applies only to myself. You author your own actions and choices. I cannot and will not be responsible for you, nor are you for me, regardless of situation or circumstance.