LGBTAitp 27: Of Shoes, and Ships, and Sealing Wax

[noparlpf]

Originally Posted by Astrella

My Adam's Apple Does Not Define Me; this is a pretty cool video. Standard advice to stay clear of the comments though. >.>

Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)

[Astrella]

Originally Posted by noparlpf

Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)

Hm hm, I'm aware of that.

[Absol197]

I'm actually rather lucky on that note: I usually can't even find my adam's apple normally. I have to feel for it to find out where it is.

[Lix Lorn]

Originally Posted by Absol197

I'm actually rather lucky on that note: I usually can't even find my adam's apple normally. I have to feel for it to find out where it is.

Same, actually.

[noparlpf]

I'm cis, but mine is fairly small/non-protrusive.

[Arachu]

GUYSGUYSGUYS

My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover ). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it ) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second )~ X3

Originally Posted by Mynxae

Speaking of good things in general... I now have a boyfriend. And I don't know how, 'cause he's so skinny... But he's so WARM! Gah, I just want to cuddle him now! safddfgsdfggoddamnitfdgsdfgsdfg!

X3 *Hugs~*

Originally Posted by Selpharia

*Hugs* for everyone.

EDIT: And congratulations, Mynxae!

@Astrelia/Absol- Everything you said I feel completely.

I had another therapy session today. The appointment itself was still great, but afterwards as I was walking home, thinking about all the obstacles that still remain to transition, all the things and people I could lose in the process, and how utterly wrong my body felt just hit me like a gargantuan wave. I got back to my apartment and spent an hour just cuddling my Rarity plushie and styling her mane while watching my roommate play video games to distract myself (once I'd calmed sown enough to not be on the verge of tears.) Thankfully, he didn't really question it.

dysphoria

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For me, the minor glimpses of dysphoria are like a kind of nausea that I get when I contemplate my male bits or look too closely in a mirror at my unconquerable scraggle. The sudden acute bouts feel like I'm turning into grotesque sludge and am falling slowly into an inescapable pit of blackness as my form slowly loses coherence. Paradoxically, my is more and more present and disgusting even as I imagine it slowly disintegrating into ooze.

emotional suppression

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Pretty ,much identical to Absol and Astrelia, except I managed to additionally persuade myself that emotion and empathy were weaknesses and that I was naturally superior to those who allowed such things. It feels like I've hidden behind a steel mask of callous indifference for so long that it melded with my face. It's so hard to remove, and when I do, it means horrible pain as some of my face comes with it. Things are slowly getting better, but it does feel like I haven't let myself freely feel for so long that when I do it's like a flood.

I tried tucking a few times today. Felt great, but without anything to hold things in place, it doesn't last long, and feels worse when it fails

*Hugs!*


~Bianca

[Heliomance]

Originally Posted by Arachu

GUYSGUYSGUYS

My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover ). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it ) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second )~ X3



X3 *Hugs~*



*Hugs!*


~Bianca

AWESOME! Go you!

[Mynxae]

Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. You guys are amazing *cuddles*

He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him.

[golentan]

Originally Posted by Mynxae

Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. You guys are amazing *cuddles*

He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him.

Is it any easier to sleep when you're actually using him as a pillow rather than an ordinary pillow smelling like him? Or does that make it even harder? I really hope the latter, that's how fun starts.

[Mynxae]

Originally Posted by golentan

Is it any easier to sleep when you're actually using him as a pillow rather than an ordinary pillow smelling like him? Or does that make it even harder? I really hope the latter, that's how fun starts.

You sly dog

He's sleeping over either tonight or tomorrow night. My roommate is having his family over tonight and his stepdad is a little homophobic or something, so he can't stay over if they sleep over. But it isn't confirmed if they're sleeping over or not.

[Selpharia]

Originally Posted by Arachu

GUYSGUYSGUYS

My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover ). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it ) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second )~ X3



X3 *Hugs~*



*Hugs!*


~Bianca

That's really great! I'm especially glad your aunt is so supportive. I remember from a few threads ago that you have really pretty hair, so I'm sure it'll look even more beautiful (and jealousy inducing ) once you're done. The poor shop clerk must have been confused, I'm sure he'll pick correctly next time.

[SaintRidley]

Originally Posted by Mynxae

You sly dog


He's sleeping over either tonight or tomorrow night. My roommate is having his family over tonight and his stepdad is a little homophobic or something, so he can't stay over if they sleep over. But it isn't confirmed if they're sleeping over or not.

That's frustrating. You'd think plans would be far enough along that he would know so he could let you know. I hate that that sort of thing breaks down because family.

Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.

[Lentrax]

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.

Cake is the only real reason to do anything.

Seriously. Name one thing not made better by cake.

[Coidzor]

^: Well there's the obligatory lies and jokes and references thereof.

Originally Posted by noparlpf

I have largeish thighs, I guess, and everything just feels crushed.

I can't wear women's pants or skinny jeans or do that for probably the same reason, ja.

Originally Posted by noparlpf

I'm not a fan of briefs. Especially the female sort, but even the male sort with a bit more room.

Boxer-briefs are king in my book.

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.

Funnily enough, all of the wedding officiating types that I've known have always given out the advice to elope and if there needs to be something for the family to just have a reception/party celebrating the wedding.

Also congratulations and good luck.

[golentan]

Originally Posted by Lentrax

Cake is the only real reason to do anything.

Seriously. Name one thing not made better by cake.

A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.

[Mynxae]

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

That's frustrating. You'd think plans would be far enough along that he would know so he could let you know. I hate that that sort of thing breaks down because family.

Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.

Congratulations.

Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!

I get cuddles tonight. c:

[Coidzor]

Originally Posted by golentan

A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.

Ah, but there it makes you stronger for having resisted and become inured to cake.

Really, everyone should become inured to cake. For pie is the true siren of the pastry kingdom.

[SaintRidley]

Originally Posted by Mynxae

Congratulations.

Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!

I get cuddles tonight. c:

See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.

[golentan]

Originally Posted by Mynxae

Congratulations.

Good news. My roommate finally got confirmation that his parents.. AREN'T SLEEPING OVER! YAY!

I get cuddles tonight. c:

Awesome. Enjoy failing to get adequate sleep.

[Mynxae]

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.

Definitely so my friend!

Originally Posted by golentan

Awesome. Enjoy failing to get adequate sleep.

He'll be tired though, 'cause he's been at Dreamworld all today with his Uncle.. Doesn't mean I won't try to stop him from sleeping.

[golentan]

Okay, seriously. What is with my sexuality lately? My libido's all over the place, my interests are all over the place, I'm just so confused. I found myself desperately attracted to a muscle man with a lot of stubble earlier, and that's always been kind of the antithesis of the type of guy I go for. And my response to women has been equally baffling...

[PairO'Dice Lost]

Originally Posted by golentan

Okay, seriously. What is with my sexuality lately? My libido's all over the place, my interests are all over the place, I'm just so confused. I found myself desperately attracted to a muscle man with a lot of stubble earlier, and that's always been kind of the antithesis of the type of guy I go for. And my response to women has been equally baffling...

Fluctuating tastes happen sometimes. I've noticed that since I generally go for personality over looks, there are times where I'll get to know a guy who's nowhere near my usual type and find myself attracted to him once we hang out and talk a bit, when if I'd just passed him in the street or seen a picture or something I wouldn't have given him a second glance or even thought "eew, no."

This can be somewhat problematic at times, such as when this happened with my sophomore-year roommate in college. My group of close friends and I had been getting to know each other over the course of the year, gradually going from 4 guys to over 12 as the year went on, and everyone decided that we'd pair up as roommates for the next year; I decided to pick the guy I knew least and felt least attracted to avoid any potential issues. Then, of course, we went from chatting after class a few times a week to spending hours and hours together every day and sharing two classes, and whaddya know, suddenly...well, 'twas a long year.

As to your tastes in women, can't help you there. Women are weird. My sister tells me so, so it must be true.

[SiuiS]

Originally Posted by noparlpf

I have largeish thighs, I guess, and everything just feels crushed.

I want larger thighs, if that's any consolation. It well, more roundess all arous, rather.

That would require finding a rubber band, but that's a good idea. I'll try it.

The worst part of my workday on Friday was that I couldn't find a pink paper clip.

I'm not a fan of briefs. Especially the female sort, but even the male sort with a bit more room.

I've moved from boxers to more form-fitting brief. After some issues with body heat loosening the fabric, I went from boxer-briefs to bikini briefs. I needed a minimum of support and consistency I just wasn't getting, and jumping fences and running and kicking and such were painfully unhealthy.

Originally Posted by noparlpf

Just pointing out, cissexual women also have Adam's apples. They're just (usually) smaller due to the growth caused by testosterone released during male puberty. Don't know if that helps any.
(Did somebody share something about that recently?)

Isn't there an anatomical difference between laryngeal cartilage and an adam's apple? The Adams apple is specifically the external bulging in the middle of the larynx; a large larynx itself would be unfortunate but not an Adams apple. Or so I thought.

Originally Posted by Arachu

GUYSGUYSGUYS

My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover ). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it ) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second )~ X3

Hot darn! That's totally cool. I didn't know your aunt was in on the gig?

Originally Posted by Mynxae

Thanks again everyone. I find it funny that I posted that I have a boyfriend now in both here, and in Random Banter. Like ten+ people said congrats in here, only one in Random Banter. You guys are amazing *cuddles*

They are quite a swell gaggle.

He might be coming over tonight! Doesn't help that it's hard to sleep when my pillow smells like him.

Aw, that's cute you're at the pillow scent enjoying phase. Thats one of the best phases.

Originally Posted by golentan

A strict diet plan you're not willing to break for the cake that's right there. Tempting you.

But without the cake tempting you, is not your resolve less tested?

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

See, patience is not its own reward. Cuddles are.

Need more signature space.

[Asta Kask]

Originally Posted by Arachu

GUYSGUYSGUYS

My aunt got me nail polish and a new file for my birthday (also some remover ). Also my cousin and I are planning to get my hair trimmed soon (I might try to ask if they can make it look a little more androgynous while I'm at it ) and a Dollar Store clerk that I had to have unlock a bathroom took a bit to figure out which door to open earlier (he landed on Boy's, but it still took a second )~ X3

~Bianca

You have a very cool aunt. Be sure to tell her that.

Tell her that the Internet approves.

[ScionoftheVoid]

First of all, hugs for anyone who wants them.

Second of all, I've been having an... interesting couple of weeks. In a good way. Very good way. I now have a cuddlebuddy, who is wonderful and amazing and always makes sure I'm comfortable and is just the best. Apparently I'm adorable and rather attractive, which are not things I would ever have ascribed to myself of my own accord. But she thinks so, which is what matters. Lots of cuddles and kisses are being had, and they are great.
I hope that doesn't sounds gloating, and apologise deeply if it does.

[Lix Lorn]

Originally Posted by SiuiS

But without the cake tempting you, is not your resolve less tested?

If your resolve remains untested, how can you truly be proud of your resistance?

[noparlpf]

Originally Posted by SaintRidley

Now officially under two weeks until I'm married. Got our handfasting cords put together, our rings, sort of on track with my vows, and managed to rejigger things so we can eat inside and save $700 and not have to get a gigantic tent to eat under. Weddings are stressful. We're both wondering what drove us to have one, and then we remembered. Family. And cake. Mostly cake.

Congratulations! Sounds crazy stressful. Hopefully after it's done you can relax a bit.

Originally Posted by SiuiS

I've moved from boxers to more form-fitting brief. After some issues with body heat loosening the fabric, I went from boxer-briefs to bikini briefs. I needed a minimum of support and consistency I just wasn't getting, and jumping fences and running and kicking and such were painfully unhealthy.

I find boxers a comfortable middle ground between uncomfortably crushed and uncomfortably loose.

Isn't there an anatomical difference between laryngeal cartilage and an adam's apple? The Adams apple is specifically the external bulging in the middle of the larynx; a large larynx itself would be unfortunate but not an Adams apple. Or so I thought.

Well, the two bits of the male larynx form a sharper angle than the same bits in females, which also affects it. The little bulge is present in females, but shallower and smaller.

[The Succubus]

Could be worse. Could be an Adam's watermelon or Adam's pineapple. No jokes about Adam's banana please. We're civilised people in this thread.

[Zorg]

Firstly big yay! for all the good news lately


Re: Adam's appples and such - I'm currently trying to find a surgeon to do a tracheal shave to reduce mine as it is very prominent. My understanding is that as noparlpf said it's to do with the angle of the join. Reduction surgery tins it out a little on the inside so it sits flatter against the rest of the neck.


On a different topic:

Who got the butt?

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Brak got the butt!



also, me the most femme I've ever been:

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Shoes aren't the greatest (they're growing on me as my first girl shoes though, lol), but they were only a tenner and confirmed that I am, in fact, a size 10 - I was looking through the kmart for something I could buy cheaply to test out when someone asked if I needed help finding anything. I replied that I knew the style "but just eneded to find it in my size..."
Cue awkward pause and them thnakfully assuming it was just a slip of the tongue on my part
(well it was technically)

Was going to do some more shopping today but I saw someone in the store who I'm not out to so made a quick strategic withdrawl before they saw me.

So yeah, shaved my legs for the first time today - took an hour and a half O_o but I did manag to avoid slicing off anything too important though
Did it whilst my ipod was on shuffle - first song that came on was Time Warp, second was YMCA, third was Vogue (fourth was Sound of Eight Hooves, though). After the struggle to reach the backs of my thighs I finally understand why so many women do yoga. Feeling very positive after a somewhat average couple of weeks of bad dysphoria and general blerg about life.

[noparlpf]

Originally Posted by Zorg

Re: Adam's appples and such - I'm currently trying to find a surgeon to do a tracheal shave to reduce mine as it is very prominent. My understanding is that as noparlpf said it's to do with the angle of the join. Reduction surgery tins it out a little on the inside so it sits flatter against the rest of the neck.

It's the angle and the size in general.
I really hope I never need surgery for anything. I won't be able to look at the incision until years after it's healed and scarred. I'm too squeamish to even think about it.

So yeah, shaved my legs for the first time today - took an hour and a half O_o but I did manag to avoid slicing off anything too important though
Did it whilst my ipod was on shuffle - first song that came on was Time Warp, second was YMCA, third was Vogue (fourth was Sound of Eight Hooves, though). After the struggle to reach the backs of my thighs I finally understand why so many women do yoga. Feeling very positive after a somewhat average couple of weeks of bad dysphoria and general blerg about life.

I'm pretty damn inflexible (at tae kwon do last week at the first session, some people came in skinny jeans and were still more flexible than I was) and if I need to I can reach the backs of my legs fine. Sitting down. If I were trying to shave my legs in a shower I'd be basically screwed due to near-blindness and inflexibility. Good thing I don't shave my legs.