So... do you mean you're agender/neutrois, or do you mean that you prefer female (if you were born female you wouldn't feel as bad) but only because you like male even less?
I personally don't feel like a male inside, but when I think of having been born a male I don't think I would care at all... So it seems like I'm the opposite of you, you don't like either, I just couldn't care less... but on the other hand I guess we're similar in not really identifying with either one?