[Hidden Cave] - Reinholdt

Perhaps the hardest part of all of this is knowing in the end, what I'd be giving up. I know people have been telling me that drugs are bad for me and not to drink rum, but honestly, what's the harm in it? Yet... I know that to pull this off, I must put them away. Even... even maybe the agony. Just the thought of that makes me shudder. Perhaps there was a work around. I'd have to work on it. But in the meantime, maybe have a little Rum Agony, just in case things don't work out.

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I caught myself talking to Jenny today. Out loud. I didn't even realize I was doing it until I accidentally bit my tongue. It... was odd. How long had I been doing that? How much of my position had been compromised? I put Jenny in her room for now, so it won't happen again. I need to finish my work and I can't have her ruining that.