Originally Posted by
supernerd
I think I know what you mean. I was just in one of my hour bouts of depression, and this one could have gone for weeks, but only went for about thirty minutes because I was able to talk with the guy I like about it (unfortunately over text(mostly cause he's got no phone and uses his iPod), so I'll have to wait until tomorrow for a hug. But he told me he wanted to help but he rally can't that all he could do was brush me off and get me ready to get back in the ring. Oddly, that was the most comforting thing I could think that someone could say. Mainly because the only other thing than one of his attempts at comforting would be for him to hold me.
I don't know why I let myself be so vulnerable to him. Maybe it's because I trust him more than anyone really. I'm more open with him than anyone else. And he's told me things that he's nigh whispered things to me while noone was in sight lest anyone else hear him say them. And the biggest reason I don't want to go against his wishes is so he doesn't get hurt or feel betrayed. He's already felt too much pain already, and the last thing I want to do is hurt him any more. The thing is he cares about me, so much, and he doesn't want me to heal his pain because the last one to try broke, but I can't let him suffer. walnut want him to be happy and full. But he said that if I try to fix him I will be betraying him. I can't imagine what he's forcing himself to do alk alone.
He needs me... And I want him. He wants me too, I know he does and he's acknowledged this and still does, but he's more concerned with protecting me and my "innocence."