I've been thinking a lot about opportunity cost. I'm starting to think I'm going to waste the rest of my life making up for my mistakes.
It all starts with one mistake. You try to make up for that mistake and then you make another one. So you try to make up for that one and you make another mistake. This goes on and on until you're gone, when it would have been better to just NOT make the mistake in the first place. Then you could go on and make the right choices again and again and have a happy fulfilling life, instead of one like mine, where it's just bad decision after bad decision hobbled out of the gate by my mental disorder.