Hah! By that logic, I'd go for Dragon Ball Z. At least then the constant struggle to make things good will give me ultimate power as I train harder and harder to become a martial god until you you can destroy the entire universe, and you can wish for true no-strings-attached, no-one-can-kill-you immortality. sure its a grimdark universe far worse than ours if you look at it objectively without its happy appearance, but if struggle is whats meaningful then any shonen anime has struggling much more meaningful than anything you'd do in real life.