Originally Posted by
ve4grm
When I first started having issues with my own mental health (I've had the OCD all my life in a minor, non-harmful way, but only developed issues starting in my late 20s) I focused on all these little things, and only saw the terrible endings that they could lead to. I stressed over them endlessly, even things that were years old. The biggest help to me getting past it (and back into my normal life) was the fact I had my wife there, and she was able to confirm to me that the thing I was stressing about? Nobody noticed, or thought it was weird. And even if it was kind of weird, it's fine and we'd get past it.
These days (4 years later) I don't need that much. But at the time, it was huge.
So I second the suggestion of having someone you trust, that you can run through these sorts of feelings with, and who can reassure you that you're ok. It doesn't even have to be someone who was there, if you don't want to involve anybody from work.
Think of it as a treatment, like putting a cast on a broken leg. Would you refuse a cast, because you don't want to be reliant on a cast forever and just want to go back to your leg not being broken? Of course not! The cast facilitates healing, and enables you to get back on your feet eventually.
So this is a cast, or a splint. Something that can prop you up, to allow you to heal, until you're able to stand on your own.
All the best in your healing.