Personal Woes and Advice 5

[S@tanicoaldo]

I'm about to face a sudden and drastic change of lifestyle and I could use some advice.

I come from a very tradicional catholic family and to them women are not supposed to work, they are supposed to be wives. I always disliked this idea and I was able to thankfully subvert their expectations.

Right now I work as an accountant for a considerable number of companies and I also have some houses and building for rent, without all that I'm able to gather a substantial income. I'm not rich but I'm able to live a comfortable and economic stable life, I was able to get a nice and spacious apartment in a bohemian and trendy part of my favorite city and to complete shut in from the outside world.

Working at home allowed me to create a very unhealthy and totally degenerate lifestyle. I never leave home and I'm a complete loner.

The only times I leave the apartment are to:
-Go to the movies.
-Go to the theater.
-Go to museums.
-Buy stuff I can't have delivered.
-Have sex.
-Eat at a cool and fancy restaurant.
-Travel.

Besides that I never leave and even these situations are very rare.

But this may all change now since the winds of destiny decided to screw me up. A cousin of mine had to deal with a divorce and now her husband (Who sustained her since she drop out form school form an early age) died. She had a major break down and had to be institutionalized. I feel for her but I had no ties with most of my family so I didn't care much about.

The issue is her son has no one to take care of him now, my cousin's mother is very sick and in a nursing home and the other cousins claim they have no money, time or capability of taking care of another kid, most of them work really hard to sustain their own families and many are unemployed right now, so everyone is acting as if I, someone with a a considered extra and disposable income and time would be the best bet to take care of the kid while his mom is recovering.

The problem is that I never wanted to take care of kids and my entire lifestyle was made with me having no kids in mind, I'm the kind of person who buys vintage gay porn and watch them HD in the living room while drinking wine grape juice, not even to masturbate but just for the aesthetics of the bodies. THIS IS NOT THE TYPE OF PERSON WHO SHOULD BE RASING OTHER PEOPLE'S KIDS for while.

The issue is that no one knows about my degenerate antics they think I'm just a weird loner not an outright crazy person. And my daily routine is super unhealthy for a kid.

I just hang out in the internet and play video games until 05:00 go to bed, get up around 11:00 take a shower eat breakfast, start working until 14:00 order something for lunch and have it delivered. Eat lunch. Go back to work until around 18:00 have a one hour break for soem exercise go back to work until 22:00. Eat something light take another shower hang out in the internet or play games until 05:00 and go to bed.

My main activities are work > internet > Work > Internet > video games. There is no way to fit an entire "raising a kid and helping him out" in my daily life.

And I hate kids, I didn't like kids even when I was a kid, I used to hang out with the adults. I just hate this whole idea. But no one else wants to take him in and I believe this whole thing is traumatic enough without him being tossed around like a ball.

So either I'm a terrible person who leaves blood of my blood out in a moment of need or I ajust and adapt my entire life style creating a more healthy environment for a kid while sacrificing all my hard work in creating the perfect life for myself.

So any tips on how to deal with this situation? Like razing a kid that is not yours and what to do and not do? Thanks.

TL;DR:

I live a very unhealthy and degenerate lifestyle, life may change now that I may have to take care of someone's else kid and I don't know what to do since raising kids was NEVER in my plans and such change will force me to modify my entire life to accommodate a more healthy environment for a kid. I don't want to ut I feel I have to and I don't know what to do.