LGBTAI+ #57 Infinity: I Love You, Always Forever

[Xihirli]

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Last Thursday, I realized that I was panromantic.
A boy I knew, an FtM who had taught me about gender, sexuality, and psychology more than anyone else, was the one who allowed me to discover it.
He is, I think, the most important person in my life right now. I wanted to keep it that way forever.
So, last Saturday, I asked him out. He said yes, we kissed, and it was the best. I was happy. Then he broke it off the next day. He said he loved me as a brother. It was painful.

[Dire Moose]

Awww. I'm sorry, Xihirli.

[Rain Dragon]

*shrug* I like raspberry jam and natural* peanut butter as toppings for a beef burger.
*as in just peanuts.

I don't understand why peanuts are tasty to me, but peanut butter is disgusting. >.<

So, how's everyone been holding up as of late? Felt like checking in.

I'm well, though the weather and my job has eliminated my social life.
I need to manage that better...

Oh it was late. I'm fine now at least as far as feeling healthy. It probably was an arythmia. Or something. Sorry if I scared everyone. The morbidity is harder to fix. Um, I'll try to think of a better response later.

I hope you manage to work on the morbidity. I have no suggestions, though. >.<

Stay safe.

So I told my dad and his fiancée that I dropped my college classes, that my girlfriend moved down from Alaska (and is currently subletting), and that I'm doing paperwork for an apartment lease and will be moving out soon.

It...went a little better than I expected.

Oh? I don't know whether the last sentence is good or still not great, but it sounds like life is moving well for you. Hopefully things are well.

Guys? I ask you all to please direct positive thoughts/prayers/energy/hopes/whatever else to Miraqariftsky this week.

** Attempts to focus positive energy to Miraqariftsky **

But the relationship is uplifting. I just have anxieties over everything, happens with regards to my friends too. I like hre a lot, I barely ever worry about the fact that she's poly, I just had a bad day monday and wanted a bit of reassurance that I am a worthwhile partner.

It's much later than Monday, but I'm sure you are a worthwhile partner. And friend!

It's pretty hard to see beyond such feelings (like anxiety). I hope the rest of the week treats you better!

Hey, folks. Miraqariftsky asked me to share some pictures of her with you guys.

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... I don't know what to say other than I love when she smiles...

Aw, she looks awesome.

I like the second outfit a lot.

Yeah, that is quite the smile!

My hair's getting long enough that I can start styling it a little now. Actually, when I combed it into more of a girlish style after a shower and looked in the mirror, I realized I couldn't tell whether I was male or female from my face. Kind of neat really.

Oh, awesome.
Have fun!

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Last Thursday, I realized that I was panromantic.
A boy I knew, an FtM who had taught me about gender, sexuality, and psychology more than anyone else, was the one who allowed me to discover it.
He is, I think, the most important person in my life right now. I wanted to keep it that way forever.
So, last Saturday, I asked him out. He said yes, we kissed, and it was the best. I was happy. Then he broke it off the next day. He said he loved me as a brother. It was painful.

Aw... /offers virtual hugs
/has no other words

[Xihirli]

It's cool. When all's been said and done, I've learned more about myself in a time where that's really important. He's still there, sorta. As a friend.
Thanks everyone for the hugs.

And I love those pictures. I'm glad that Mira's happy. She's beautiful.

[Bobbybobby99]

Hello all. Just checking in, still don't have much to say on this thread. Still attracting to guys, occasionally feeling insecure in the possibility that I might be bisexual (in what is likely the complete opposite type of sexual insecurity that most people experience). Recently had to deal with a few people that left me frothing in rage. Still mostly good.

Also, I may be approaching a life of being terribly short, having already experienced my growth spurt, and still being five foot three, in addition to being dreadfully thin. At least it's likely going to be easy for me if I ever want to pass androgonously.

[Sobol]

Also, I may be approaching a life of being terribly short, having already experienced my growth spurt, and still being five foot three, in addition to being dreadfully thin. At least it's likely going to be easy for me if I ever want to pass androgonously.

I've always found short guys to be very cute.
As for the thinness, that's not so hard to fix with proper workout and diet, if you decide to.

[Ravens_cry]

Ok,freaking out a little. I got my prescription from the endocrinologist written out, I just need to go fill it. And I'm scared. This is a huge step, and it feels bigger the more I look at it.

[Lentrax]

*hugs*

We've got your back.

[Ravens_cry]

*hugs*

We've got your back.

Thank you. I went to pick up the pills. I have them, but I was told morning was best time to take them, and it's early evening here.
Damn, it's like puberty all over again, only I'm deciding when to start it.

[Xihirli]

Good luck! May all of your pills sculpt your body to its proper form.

[Miraqariftsky]

@To Whom It May Concern:
Hallo again.
Hugs or handpats, teas or coffees to those who need 'em.

@Raven's Cry:
Great, eh? Excellent, good fer ye.

Hmm. Heh. Nice note that tech thattaway's moved on and that these don't HAVE to be taken by syringe, right?

@Sobol & Bobbybobby:
I second the motion, your honour. Proper diet, proper sleep, good exercise and good diligence. They DO help physically, mentally and even emotionally, yes.

Sorry about the frustrating people there.

@Xihirli:
Excellent, good fer ye. Still. Great ta have a good friend who'll always have yer back, eh?

Annnnnnnnd thankee kindly.

@Rain Dragon:
Sorrytahear. Hmm. But some job's better'n none, eh? Alrighty... how's the weather over there?

Thankee kindly. Alrighty... What do ye like in particular with the second outfit?

@Grytorm:
I second the motion, your honour. Stay safe, comrade! Be well, ya lovely lady.

@Jaycemonde:
Excellent. Goodferye, then.

@Dire Moose:
WELL-done! Good job, keep it up, comrade.

@Lissou:
Thaaaaankee kindly, comrade.

@Golentan:
~bow~ THANK you for passing these on to our Comrades Queer. ~flourish~ Might I ask you to pass another batch, dearest? Some shots with action or with pets would be good?

And... THANK YOU, dearest. Thank you for being such a supreme balm. Thank you for always being there. Thank you for being a beacon of humour and hope, of geektastic gorgeousness, thank you for being you, beloved.

@To Whom It May Concern:
Might I ask for some... technical... feedback with those previous shots? Thanks in advance.

[Ravens_cry]

@To Whom It May Concern:
Hallo again.
Hugs or handpats, teas or coffees to those who need 'em.

@Raven's Cry:
Great, eh? Excellent, good fer ye.

Hmm. Heh. Nice note that tech thattaway's moved on and that these don't HAVE to be taken by syringe, right?
.

Aye. While oral has its own risks, I'm glad not to have to take it by needle!
*slurps* Thanks for the tea, by the by.

[golentan]

So, I told my beloved this story earlier, but I got clocked as FtM yesterday. Despite not being.

I expressed a lack of concern about a couple of things over the time I've been there and joked about a spayed cat waking up angry by saying "Well, if someone had removed my uterus without permission I'd be pretty mad too." Yesterday I was checking if Rain was updating again on my lunch break and she looked over my shoulder, asking "Is that Rain? Oh. Oooooooh..." gave me a little smile and walked on.

[Dire Moose]

I should probably mention that Shadowscale and I are a thing now.

Also, my family invited her over for Thanksgiving dinner even knowing she was trans. Everything went really well and nobody had anything negative to say.

[JNAProductions]

Congrats, you two!

[Rain Dragon]

Ok,freaking out a little. I got my prescription from the endocrinologist written out, I just need to go fill it. And I'm scared. This is a huge step, and it feels bigger the more I look at it.

Awesome!

I hope you're feeling better.

@To Whom It May Concern:
Hallo again.
Hugs or handpats, teas or coffees to those who need 'em.

@Rain Dragon:
Sorrytahear. Hmm. But some job's better'n none, eh? Alrighty... how's the weather over there?

Thankee kindly. Alrighty... What do ye like in particular with the second outfit?

/drinks tea
Thanks

Well, not in this case. I've been stuck in it for years too, but only recently has it and the weather joined forces to rob me of the energy to go do things with friends. I'm coping with the change in weather better than usual though. I want to finish sewing my simple kimonos because where I am, it's getting really damn hot and I really want light clothing. Sorry to complain so much, but at the same time, it's sometimes good to complain about such things.

You're welcome.
I like the shapes and how it flows (if that makes any sense at all). It's also not the type of outfit I see often and I've always liked looser looking trousers. The top is interesting but simple though that might be purely because I'm pretty used to seeing only your average shirts all day every day.

I should probably mention that Shadowscale and I are a thing now.

Also, my family invited her over for Thanksgiving dinner even knowing she was trans. Everything went really well and nobody had anything negative to say.

Ooh, nice. All the best to you both.

[Ravens_cry]

Awesome!

I hope you're feeling better.

I am. I took my first batch of pills today. It might be the placebo effect, because I expected this, but I was a little more emotional, though that doesn't bother me. I like feeling things. I'm wondering when I should change my facebook name though. I've told some friends, but not everyone.

[Grytorm]

I should probably mention that Shadowscale and I are a thing now.

Also, my family invited her over for Thanksgiving dinner even knowing she was trans. Everything went really well and nobody had anything negative to say.

I am totally jelly. Of both of you.
(Although I am usually jelly of most people in the thread)
Congratulations!

[JusticeZero]

Me: "Message about a safety issue at work that I am required to radio in."
Unknown person: "Huh?"
One of my bosses: "<Not my pronoun> said *exactly what I just said*."

So, so many times. Over and over. And over and over and over.

[ThinkMinty]

I don't understand why peanuts are tasty to me, but peanut butter is disgusting.

If I had to guess...you like making the peanut butter in your mouth (by chewing), rather than some stranger doing so beforehand.

Also, I may be approaching a life of being terribly short, having already experienced my growth spurt, and still being five foot three, in addition to being dreadfully thin. At least it's likely going to be easy for me if I ever want to pass androgonously.

I spent a lot of my childhood as a runt. I grew somewhere between two n' three inches not long after turning 18, and ended up either 5'8" or 5'9" (I honestly just don't remember which). Granted, I'm more in range the average/medium height than being a short guy, but the way you approach it is pretty simple: don't care about it. You only run into problems when you get a Napoleon complex about it. Confidence solves a lot of problems, and confidence is a fancy way of saying "don't sweat the small stuff", pun unintended. Just go about your business as though you're you, and being shorter just becomes being wanged on the head by doors less often.

I also have a giant cousin who is tall enough that he has to duck to enter pretty much any room, so that's given me some perspective.

I've always found short guys to be very cute.

Plus some peeps think it's cute, so there's an upside right there.

[QUOTE=Dire Moose;20132192]I should probably mention that Shadowscale and I are a thing now.

Woop woop!

Also, my family invited her over for Thanksgiving dinner even knowing she was trans. Everything went really well and nobody had anything negative to say.

That's good. At first I read it as "without even knowing", then I wondered about what that entailed until I read it over a couple times, figured out what I'd missed, and was pleasantly surprised.

I personally skip Thanksgiving, and will continue to do so until I die. It's for personal reasons, mostly involving a really bad, sort of disfiguring accident (I always wear long sleeves for a reason) on a Thanksgiving when I was in high school. To a much lesser extent, it's also because turkey is terrible. It's always dry and terrible and people get offended if you don't want to eat it, almost as though not wanting any reminds everyone that turkey is terrible.

I just get pizza on the Wednesday then hang out with my dad and watch movies. I'm the black sheep of the family anyways, so the extended gatherings aren't really my thing.

Agreed. Was expecting a film about a girl that worked with pastries. Was disappointed. =/

Since nobody really owns a title (I think, I could be wrong), there could always be a movie with the same or similar about a trans girl who makes danishes. Granted, I think you'd get better results out of the film by having her being trans and a woman ancillary to her character beats. Treating her gender identity as just a part of who she is, rather than reducing the character's personality and arc to those traits, makes for better representation.

Now, I could be wildly wrong on that, but characters are best when they're characters first.

[Miraqariftsky]

@ThinkMinty:
Sorrytohear of your Thanksgiving and family-related misfortune.

Hmm. Maybe because turkey, as compared with industrial chicken, is a more active meat-animal?

Glad for ye with the dad and the pizza, though. Hmm. What sort of pizza do y'all favour, then?

@JusticeZero:
Sorry about the misgendering, comrade.

@RavensCry:
Excellent, good fer ye.

Hmm. Well. When you have laid the groundwork for acceptance with more of your contacts, so as to lessen the possible fallout?

If I may ask, what do you intend to change it to---?

@Rain Dragon & RavensCry:
Wondering. What tea do you most like?

@Rain Dragon:
Sorrytohear of that misfortune, then. Best wishes with your heaving yourself out of that ditch.

Sorry about the weather. Take care with your sewing. I'm sure you'll make some damn fine kimono... hmmm... correct me if I'm wrong? If it's the simple kimono, and for hot weather, isn't that the yukata?

Thankee kindly. Yeah, it does make sense, don't worry.

The... er... top-part, you mean? #2 is a dress. Again, thanks for the feedback, then.

@Dire Moose & Shadowscale:
HOOOOOOOHHHH! Congratulations, then!

@Gol:
Clocking, schmocking, that sounded positive, I daresay? AND your colleague seems to be a RainBeau as well?

@Astrella:
Ahem! And thanks for the positivity earlier. Hope all's well with you, ma'am?

[Bobbybobby99]

I spent a lot of my childhood as a runt. I grew somewhere between two n' three inches not long after turning 18, and ended up either 5'8" or 5'9" (I honestly just don't remember which). Granted, I'm more in range the average/medium height than being a short guy, but the way you approach it is pretty simple: don't care about it. You only run into problems when you get a Napoleon complex about it. Confidence solves a lot of problems, and confidence is a fancy way of saying "don't sweat the small stuff", pun unintended. Just go about your business as though you're you, and being shorter just becomes being wanged on the head by doors less often.

I also have a giant cousin who is tall enough that he has to duck to enter pretty much any room, so that's given me some perspective.

Plus some peeps think it's cute, so there's an upside right there.

Snip.

I personally skip Thanksgiving, and will continue to do so until I die. It's for personal reasons, mostly involving a really bad, sort of disfiguring accident (I always wear long sleeves for a reason) on a Thanksgiving when I was in high school. To a much lesser extent, it's also because turkey is terrible. It's always dry and terrible and people get offended if you don't want to eat it, almost as though not wanting any reminds everyone that turkey is terrible.

I just get pizza on the Wednesday then hang out with my dad and watch movies. I'm the black sheep of the family anyways, so the extended gatherings aren't really my thing.

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Oh well, I suppose I was overreacting to it a bit. I occasionally do that. Good advice all around.

In terms of turkey, I also find normal turkey disagreeable, but it becomes much more enjoyable when swimming in gravy (or somewhere close), and when that gravy is homemade using a mixture of turkey juice, cream, and heavily accented by removable vegatables and spices. Most gravy is terrible, and makes whatever it's on even more terrible, but the good stuff really brings out the turkey's natural texture and flavor.

In other news, I caught my uncle's cold over thanksgiving, so now I'm sick, but I'm trying dilute organic apple cider vinegar to make it go away more rapidly, because it turns alkaline in some complex stomach reaction, which I'd good for you in this coffee infused world of ours. I swear, that stuff is better than modern antibiotics.

[ThinkMinty]

@ThinkMinty:
Sorrytohear of your Thanksgiving and family-related misfortune.

Nah, it's fine. I have another year until another Thanksgiving, so I'm in a happy place.

Hmm. Maybe because turkey, as compared with industrial chicken, is a more active meat-animal?

Even with gravy, turkey is always dry and awful, it tastes like I'm eating wallpaper. I'm not huge on birdmeats anyways, but Turkey is the worst of the ones I've had.

Glad for ye with the dad and the pizza, though. Hmm. What sort of pizza do y'all favour, then?

Different sorts, as half-and-half pizza, my foodmeats end up always contaminating his vegetarian side, and that just doesn't work for either of us. I just grabbed twenty dollars worth of different slices from a great by-the-slice place.

I'm a carnivore, and I'm also very accommodating to those who aren't. It isn't that hard to be considerate, and food safety is important enough of a thing that the minimal effort it takes to be kind to veggies isn't even much of an ask as far as I'm concerned. Vegans are notably trickier to please, and their level of scrutiny, as an onus, is more on them than it would be for vegetarians. Then again, some of that opinion comes from being able to eat vegetarian stuff without it bothering me, but vegan stuff usually tasting kind of platitudinous and/or worse.

...to answer the question, Pepperoni for me, Cheese for him. It took a few years into adulthood to get the routine down so that we didn't end up driving all over the state trying to find warm food.

[Ravens_cry]

atever it's on even more terrible, but the good stuff really brings out the turkey's natural texture and flavor.

In other news, I caught my uncle's cold over thanksgiving, so now I'm sick, but I'm trying dilute organic apple cider vinegar to make it go away more rapidly, because it turns alkaline in some complex stomach reaction, which I'd good for you in this coffee infused world of ours. I swear, that stuff is better than modern antibiotics.

For a cold? Very possibly. Antibiotics don't do squat for cold or flu. They kill bacteria, not viruses.

@RavensCry:
Excellent, good fer ye.

Thank you!

@Rain Dragon & RavensCry:
Wondering. What tea do you most like?

Orange Pekoe or English Breakfast. Heat the pot well, make sure the water is boiling before you pour, and steep until it could curdle a stone. Keep the pot hot with multiple coverings.
Milk first.

[Bobbybobby99]

For a cold? Very possibly. Antibiotics don't do squat for cold or flu. They kill bacteria, not viruses.

Try telling that to my doctor. I think she might be single-handly responsible for the modern presence of superbugs.
"My nose is running, and I have a weird cough."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I'm having a problem with incontinence."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I think I might have a cold."
"Have this bottle of super-extra-strength antibiotics!"

[Ravens_cry]

Try telling that to my doctor. I think she might be single-handly responsible for the modern presence of superbugs.
"My nose is running, and I have a weird cough."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I'm having a problem with incontinence."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I think I might have a cold."
"Have this bottle of super-extra-strength antibiotics!"

Oh dear lord . . . At the very most, they'll help with any opportunistic secondary bacterial infections, but other than that!

[Icewraith]

Re:turkey

Have you had turkey from different sources? Turkey is like drywall if it's overcooked, but properly cooked Turkey can be moist and delicious.

People can certainly dislike foods for any reason, but a particular complaint that it's always [something] can be a sign that the person you get it from (especially if it's a holiday dish you can avoid the rest of the year if you care to) isn't preparing it well.

For instance, my father suffered through overcooked brussels sprouts in his formative years and dreaded them to the point we never had then growing up, a trained chef prepared them sauteed with onions, cranberries, and panchetta (fancy bacon) and he couldn't stop raving about them.

[Athedia]

Ugh, the antibiotics shuffle. I get bronchitis every winter and most summers which usually manifests as a really bad cough and then gets worse. Two to three weeks, once I stop being able to sleep, I see a doctor and pray I have a bacterial cause intea of viral. Then the prescription of antibiotics (start feeling better in a few days ) or extra strength throat numbing and slightly addictive cough medicine starts...

[Ravens_cry]

For instance, my father suffered through overcooked brussels sprouts in his formative years and dreaded them to the point we never had then growing up, a trained chef prepared them sauteed with onions, cranberries, and panchetta (fancy bacon) and he couldn't stop raving about them.

Hell, just a light steaming, some butter , and they're just fine. Even liver and onions can be good if you cook it right.

[Rain Dragon]

I am. I took my first batch of pills today. It might be the placebo effect, because I expected this, but I was a little more emotional, though that doesn't bother me. I like feeling things. I'm wondering when I should change my facebook name though. I've told some friends, but not everyone.

It could be, but that sounds great anyway.

I'm not sure. It might depend a little on whether you would be comfortable with the people you haven't told learning through Facebook only.

Me: "Message about a safety issue at work that I am required to radio in."
Unknown person: "Huh?"
One of my bosses: "<Not my pronoun> said *exactly what I just said*."

So, so many times. Over and over. And over and over and over.

Ugh, that sounds exhausting.
At least, it would feel draining to me.

@Rain Dragon & RavensCry:
Wondering. What tea do you most like?

@Rain Dragon:
Sorrytohear of that misfortune, then. Best wishes with your heaving yourself out of that ditch.

Sorry about the weather. Take care with your sewing. I'm sure you'll make some damn fine kimono... hmmm... correct me if I'm wrong? If it's the simple kimono, and for hot weather, isn't that the yukata?

Thankee kindly. Yeah, it does make sense, don't worry.

The... er... top-part, you mean? #2 is a dress. Again, thanks for the feedback, then.

Earl Grey or a strong breakfast tea. I drink a lot of fruit or mint teas too (especially since it's not good to drink drinks with caffeine after a certain time). I haven't even tried green teas.
I also like oolong tea and really wish more random shops sold bottled oolong tea than just the Japanese dollar store.

Thanks. Yeah, 'tis.

Neat.

Hm? Maybe I can't see one or two, but I meant this one.

Try telling that to my doctor. I think she might be single-handly responsible for the modern presence of superbugs.
"My nose is running, and I have a weird cough."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I'm having a problem with incontinence."
"Have this bottle of super-strength antibiotics!"
"I think I might have a cold."
"Have this bottle of super-extra-strength antibiotics!"