Bay Area/California meetup

[Alleine]

I should really buy some dramatic clothing or something, so that if I ever do show up to one of these, I can burst in the door dramatically.

Also, I must complain about the lack of pictures.

[averagejoe]

I should really buy some dramatic clothing or something, so that if I ever do show up to one of these, I can burst in the door dramatically.

Also, I must complain about the lack of pictures.

I cannot upload, alas. That cable is hiding from me.

Also, Pocketa may have you beat there. She even had her own theme music.

Just so's you know.

[Alleine]

Well dang. Upstaged and I haven't even been on stage yet! Curses!
All purpose in life is now lost!

[averagejoe]

Well dang. Upstaged and I haven't even been on stage yet! Curses!
All purpose in life is now lost!

Why do people I talk to keep saying that?

[Alleine]

All purpose in life is now lost?
Hm, thats a tough one. Do you suck out life's purpose? Is that what you feed on?! If so, that totally rocks.

Its not that big a deal coming from me though. My life's purposes are few and far between.

[Pocketa]

You haven't been upstaged, I'm not that fat. Yet.

It's a sad in-joke actually, it's because I was never told I was attractive as a child, and it turns out I am now. Berkeley High is very complimentary.

[Alleine]

Judging by your avatar I'd say you're as skinny as a stick person! *ba-dum psh!*

Thank you, thank you, I'll be here all week.

Well, up until maybe a year or so ago I firmly believed it was against the laws of the universe for a girl to like me. Form there it shifted to 'for any girl to like and something actually come of it'.

[Pocketa]

I'd say I know how you feel, but I'm not the kind of person that doesn't get what she wants. I used to not get what I wanted, but now I usually do. I pick my battles.

Also, I am getting pretty thin, but that's because I haven't been able to eat a real meal in a few weeks. It started when I got to school, because I was just less hungry being in love, then I had to tell a big lie that made me feel guilty, so I couldn't eat, and then my boyfriend tells me he's in love with another girl. So triple whammy, and I got skinny.

I don't like it, because not even soup is helping. I tried to trick my body into taking it, and it won't, and if this continues into Thanksgiving, I will cry. I

'm not feeling my stomach at all, but have been violently ill.

I can only drink water. Even then...

But on a more positive note:

I am currently disappointed in my boyfriend for so many reasons. It's just too much.

He needs to save the drama fo' his mama,
because cancel my subscription,
I'm tired of his issues.
It's ridickdic off the shizzle, and it's all
Jets versus Sharks
all over again,
and in this hood,
that ain't how we roll,
we believe in conflict re-solution,
that's in our Ghetto Constitution,
and it's my premonition
that this is the ammunition
in the gun that I'm using to shoot myself in the foot.

I came up with that on the fly. Bits aren't mine, but most is.

[averagejoe]

Judging by your avatar I'd say you're as skinny as a stick person! *ba-dum psh!*

Judging by my avatar I'm Adam Baldwin.

@Pocketa: *hugs* (I always thought that was weird to do online, but what else can one do?)

[Alleine]

I came up with that on the fly.

I think I'm in love.
That was totally awesome

[Pocketa]

Judging by your avatar, Adam Baldwin has no calves.

Joe, I'm eating, just losing way too much weight, nothing's being absorbed (I'll spare the details of how I know), my ribs, cheekbones, collarbones, and spine are now a lot more exposed. Not Icewalker's level, but still. I'm especially worried because eating hasn't helped, it doesn't make me feel any different. I'm making sure to remember to eat something every day, no matter what it is. I don't like this, and I hate not being able to know if I'm hungry or thirsty, because I juts don't know. The thirst part scares me the most, but I'm doing what I did at Burning Man: down a bottle of water at least once a class period, whenever I pass the kitchen at home (at least twice an hour) I drink water, and if I feel my mouth be anything but totally salivia-ish, I drink.

Also, I'm going to give up my boyfriend soon. I don't want to do it too soon, but he's being a player, and I deserve better. I love him, but he called me some names, never emails or calls, makes me not feel all that great about myself other than that I'm attractive, and it's potentially emotionally and mentally abusive.

I'm tired of being hurt.
I'm tired of playing second fiddle. .
I'm tired of trying to figure out a plan to get to Burning Man next year just to see you when you might not even be there, or might be with her, or might break up with me by then.
I'm tired of trying to figure you out.
I'm tired of talking about you so much.
I'm tired of trying to guess what you want.
I'm tired of my friends thinking you're a 40-year-old Internet pervert.
I'm tired of trying to convince you to really commit to this.
I'm tired of being alone even when I'm with the people I love.
I'm tired of worrying that you're not going to email me and it will turn out that you're with her.
I'm tired of not having a schedule.
I'm tired of the fact she has you under her beck and call.
I'm tired of having been unable to eat for the past few weeks, ever since you told me you're still in love with her.
I'm tired of people at school saying you're not real.
I'm tired of trying to get something I'll never have.
I'm tired of having to defend this relationship.
I'm tired of telling people I'm in a relationship even though I'll be telling them I'm single soon if you have your way.
I'm tired of second-guessing myself.
I'm tired of living a lie to all my friends.
I'm tired of being told I deserve better.
I'm tired of keeping secrets.
I'm tired of hearing my phone ring and getting excited and then realizing it's not you, and probably never will be you.
I'm tired of talking to strangers more than I talk to my own boyfriend.
I'm tired of having friends that want me to move on.
I'm tired of trying to figure out who I am around you.
I'm tired of not pretending to be somebody else.
I'm tired of being honest.
I'm tired of not knowing what to say.
I'm tired of writing long lists that you'll probably not read.
I'm tired of composing emails you probably show your friends at school.
I'm tired of being considered a joke.
I'm tired of living knowing that you'll be gone soon.
I'm tired of wondering why you love somebody so much even though she doesn't love you anymore.
I'm tired of wondering why you can't get over her but it was so easy for me to get over him.
I'm tired of being told I need to end this.
I'm tired of us being just us.
I'm tired of not having a soul mate.
I'm tired of everything being so complicated.
I'm tired of knowing you will let me go, let me down, run around and desert me, even though we're no strangers to love, you know the rules and so do I.
I'm tired of a full commitment not being what you're thinking of.
I'm tired of quoting mushy song lyrics.
I'm tired of crying.
I'm tired of running.
I'm tired of my body slowly killing itself and there being nothing I can do to stop it.
I'm tired of wondering what you really think of me.
I'm tired of not being able to talk to you.
I'm tired of scared this'll end any minute.
I'm tired of not seeing you.
I'm tired of thinking about you every time I hear Aenema play.
I'm tired of wondering why I even bother.
I'm tired of wondering why this'll even work.
I'm tired of feeling pathetic.
I'm tired of feeling emo every time I write you an email.
I'm tired of talking about my feelings.
I'm tired of writing about my feelings.
I'm tired of feeling.
I'm tired of missing you.
I'm tired of caring.
I'm tired of being tired.
I'm tired of this.


A good boyfriend is comitted.
A good boyfriend doesn't call you names.

A good boyfriend is there for you.
A good boyfriend doesn't tell you to "deal with it".

A good boyfriend is yours.
A good boyfriend doesn't tell you he'll leave you for his ex if she asked.

A good boyfriend is caring.
A good boyfriend doesn't tell you to get over it.

A good boyfriend is ready for the worst.
A good boyfriend doesn't tell you to date your ex-best-friend.

A good boyfriend is supposed to make you feel good about yourself.
A good boyfriend doesn't make you feel worse.

A good boyfriend is what I deserve.
A good boyfriend doesn't do what my boyfriend does.

And I'm tired of this.


EDIT: I'm going to be single, starting now.

[averagejoe]

I deserve better.

You totally do.

[Pocketa]

Yeah?

Well maybe I do!

Yeah!

It's on!

I'm going to wait to find somebody right for me instead of dating strings of people that turn out to disappoint me in the end!

Yeah!

[averagejoe]

Yeah?

Well maybe I do!

Yeah!

It's on!

I'm going to wait to find somebody right for me instead of dating strings of people that turn out to disappoint me in the end!

Yeah!

[Pocketa]

In the mean time.

Meetups!

They are awesome places to meet potential others in a safe and non-threatening environment and setting of a gaming parlor which is of mutual interest to hopefully me and my next SO other GitP'ers who can kick Internet-knight butt who are the best people you'll ever meet.

Alleine, I decree, as Queen of this thread (until Xeluu comes back) that you need to wear awesome dress and I shall do so as well!

[averagejoe]

Alleine, I decree, as Queen of this thread (until Xeluu comes back) that you need to wear awesome dress and I shall do so as well!

Just to be clear, you remember that we decided Alleine is a dude a couple pages back? Not saying it's a bad decree, just making sure.

[Xeluu]

XD Haha, I never left anyway. I'm a lurker by nature, didn't have anything to say....


And I'm not queen of the thread... Although it DOES have a nice ring to it...

No one's queen/king of the thread... well... the boys can fight over King, we girls will just have to get along. :p


Pocketa: May I recommend a few things?

If you're having trouble eating/not being ill from eating: Eat simple to digest foods. Plain rice, saltine crackers, bread, for whatever reason 7-up, Sprite, Canada Dry(Ginger Ale) have always seemed to help settle my stomach if it's upset. Just try eating small amounts regularly throughout the day. Even if you're not hungry, try to get into the habit of eating SOMETHING during the three meals.

And yeah, I'm not around this weekend, I caught some cold or something, so I'm gonna keep my germs to myself.

[Poison_Fish]

Soups can form a good base for easy to digest foods as well. Egg drop soup was particularly useful for me.

Side note, is it bad that I love the taste of ginger ale despite it being only used to remedy bad stomachs in my youth?

Also, I shall have no part in this "king" business. I shall now be Comrade Poison Fish.

This week just happens to be bad for me as I have friends visiting from seattle(Ones who are demanding that I hunt down certain far-away shops that takes 4 hours to get to by public transportation ;_;). Also my older sister is moving and I need to help with that/hook up internet/make sure no one steals their wireless signal.

And puppies. Oh sweet merciful zeus, the puppies.

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[SilentNight]

Judging by my avatar I'm Adam Baldwin.

That would make you my dad's old roommate.

@Pocks: Try watching food network, it might help. PF's advice is good too.

[Poison_Fish]

That would make you my dad's old roommate.

@Pocks: Try watching food network, it might help. PF's advice is good too.

I normally don't watch food network. Or much of any TV.

But I do make an exception for Alton Brown.

[averagejoe]

XD Haha, I never left anyway. I'm a lurker by nature, didn't have anything to say....

Run!

And I'm not queen of the thread... Although it DOES have a nice ring to it...

No one's queen/king of the thread... well... the boys can fight over King, we girls will just have to get along. :p

What's the point of fighting? I'd inevitably come out on top. Not that I'd bring myself down to the level of actually starting a conflict, just sayin.

[Alleine]

Just to be clear, you remember that we decided Alleine is a dude a couple pages back? Not saying it's a bad decree, just making sure.

Not that I'd be adverse to wearing a dress. I've heard there's some nice airflow there firefly reference FTW!

Unfortunately, I lack money for the attire I most desire. Unless I scoop out my savings, a thing my parents will frown sternly upon for he purchase of my favored clothes.

As a side note, if we're going with titles for this thread, I can't contend for any of them. I guarantee that I would lose any fights against anyone. It comes with the territory of struggling to win armwrestling contests with five year olds.

[averagejoe]

So, are we doin' tomorrow, and at what time?

[Pocketa]

I will go tomorrow if we all go. It's either you guys or another friend. I promise stories. Good happy stories, not mesad ones, and I will go tomorrow. If people other than me go.

Also, I said fancy dress, not a fancy dress.

[Icewalker]

Those puppies do seem quite excellent.

I won't be there, out of town. I may come another time though, depends on my workload on any specific weekend.

[Pocketa]

I suggest 10 am.

EDIT: Xeluu is a woman, therefore the Queen, and I am a mere gorram brat, so I am Princess.

[Alleine]

Once again I will be detained, which gives me time to find appropriate attire. Helping a friend move to her most awesome house that I am extremely envious of, and also I have homework due monday that needs to be at least looked at. My next few weeks, however, seem quite free.

[Kelmeras]

Count me out for tomorrow. Still trying to build a deck of extremely ugly creatures to counter pf's deck of moderately ugly creatures.

So far I have 60 of this.

Hideous... I know.

[Pocketa]

I want that card so bad! All of them!

[averagejoe]

I suggest 10 am.

EDIT: Xeluu is a woman, therefore the Queen, and I am a mere gorram brat, so I am Princess.

I probably can't make it till twelve, maybe later.