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2012-04-27, 04:01 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 04:03 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: LGBTAitP Part 23: Et tu, ~Bianca?
I've learned to hide my feelings very well and it's in fact something a struggle to show them - because I know it hurts people I care about to see me depressed. And it's not unusual for people to relax and feel a sense of serenity once you've made the decision to commit suicide. The final decision has been made. There's no more indecision.
I will be brutally honest here. You can't. What you can do is look out for the symptoms. Are you losing interest in activities you normally find pleasurable? Are you blue for most or all of the day, with no relief? Are you beginning to fantasize about how much better it was if you were dead? When you begin to have feelings and fantasies like these, it's time to hit the brakes. I'm not saying that these symptoms are the only ones you have to look out for, but if you have them, call the hospital and tell them to make a bed ready.
*hug*Last edited by Asta Kask; 2012-04-27 at 04:04 PM.
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2012-04-27, 04:22 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: LGBTAitP Part 23: Et tu, ~Bianca?
"I'm just going on motive and opportunity here and the fact that if the earth got swallowed by a black hole, I'd look suspiciously in your direction first."
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2012-04-27, 04:26 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 04:36 PM (ISO 8601)
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*Hug*
That is one of the most horrible things one can experience. Losing something that seemed fundamental and stable can cause severe crises from sorrow and sadness. Please do seek a therapist or other help if you can, it would only get worse if it ends up hurting your life too. ;_;
I hope the Facebook page can be regained, have you tried the Wayback Machine and others like it? They are pages that can give you a copy of a webpage as it appeared at an earlier date. I don't know if it will work, but it might be worth a try.Treasured Quotes
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2012-04-27, 04:36 PM (ISO 8601)
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I'm a sign of bliss overload? :O
Crikey.
I'm sorry friend. That's terrible. I hope we can at least you through it.
Your avatar continues to make me spontaneously smile.
Hmm. I'm gonna have to go lookup those peacock spiders again.
I know plenty of folks who do that, who lack uteruses entirely, so it's likely not related to biological sex. Or at least, not completely.
pfffft. We haven't destroyed reality yet!
And quite frankly, I could use some successes on my villain resume. The number of failures inflicting BSOD on reality is troubling. It's harshin' my rep.
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That pain scale is weird. It seems rather conservative, buy prioritizing physical trauma that shuts down the body. That's not painful though! Nausea is more inhibiting, but definitely hurts less (on its own).
According to this scale;
Being stabbed in an extremity is a 4.5
Breaking a bone is a 1
Getting hit by a machete is a 2
Being struck in the head by a hammer is a 6
Withdrawal from severe caffeine addiction is a 9
That is all sorts of counterintuitive.
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2012-04-27, 04:51 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: LGBTAitP Part 23: Et tu, ~Bianca?
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2012-04-27, 04:54 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 05:51 PM (ISO 8601)
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EDIT: I assumed you were being rhetorical XD
Not quite clockwork, but that's attributed to self control. The folks in question experience mood swings, but "can usually handld if unless my will has recently been eroded."
I honestly don't know. I'm saying I don't think its PMS but my line of thinking is "both sides being equally likely, in choosing the one which feels correct to me".
Kind of like child birth. The scale rated it as RED and on the top of the chart, but I have had a small number of women in good health tell me birthing is irritating but not crippling. Everyone who disagrees with them has been terribly out of shape, malnourished, and prone to panic and over exaggeration. So in my head, when someone says birth is hard, I call them a sissy. I can only hope being award of this bias mitigates its effects. But I am indeed, biased. And as, sadly, I don't have access to the equipment to find out (organic or otherwise) I'll have to take your word on it.
Clockwork does make a convincing case however, and I'd be the worst kind of hypocrite if I dismissed heuristic evidence.
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Finally read Asta's linked article on mcdonalds, and have a tangent that I think is relevant. It may not be, I can take or elsewhere, but I honestly want to know;
Natalie said she kept quiet out of fear of a beating.
If you live a lifestyle where this is an honest fear why don't you take steps to mitigate it? Pepper spray. Martial arts. Dial 911 on your cell before beginning retaliation (the police show up awful fast if the get an emergency call and can't really hear anything).
I will be the first to admit that violence is bad. But I enjoy a sense of sovereignty. Being insulted and doing nothing is fine. Being insulted and being unable to do anything and carrying that sense of fear and shame with you is not. Why would you ever forsake your right to be prepared for a situation and live in fear? You don't have to attack someone, but bring able to avoid getting curbstomped if someone else starts it should be a good idea, shouldn't it?Last edited by SiuiS; 2012-04-27 at 05:53 PM.
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2012-04-27, 05:58 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: LGBTAitP Part 23: Et tu, ~Bianca?
We're here for you, and so are your other friends, from the sound of it. It sounds like it would be really helpful for you to talk about these things with people; with a therapist and with your friends and family. The fact that you're so upset about the facebook page coming down suggests to me that you need a connection with your friend who died, you don't have closure yet, which is so normal and so right when something like this happens.
As other people have said, a lot of depressed people are really really good at hiding it. He didn't just snap, he was suffering from a bad illness for a long time, and he died of it.
I would say try to see a therapist of some kind (your college probably has counsellors you can talk to if you can't afford to go private) and keep in touch with mutual friends of your friend who died. I hope you can get to that memorial you said was being organised through the facebook page, that would be a good way to get a chance to say goodbye to your friend. You could also write him a letter or go to his grave to talk to him.
On the topic of the facebook page, as I understand it, facebook doesn't delete information for ages, so it's still there somewhere. I also believe they follow the instructions of the person's family, so that sounds like the most likely thing. Stay connected and stay safe.
Oh, it could easily be that you do have a hormonal ebb and flow that affects your mood, I imagine some people do. But that doesn't mean that you're being "irrational and crazy" and that you can be disregarded because you're incapacitated by your womb. (Or you might be expecting it subconsciously!)
SpoilerI don't think I've been anyone's official goddess on a subject before. I'm incredibly flattered!
There are lots of good options for reusable menstrual products. I think the main barrier for most people is the "yuck, blood!" factor, but you kind of have to deal with that anyway, it's not like it's highly toxic or anything.
Anyway! If you're interested, here's a good place to start! It's a review of different reusable menstrual products on a good blog, run by parents who are generally into attachment/gentle parenting (breastfeeding, cloth nappies, babywearing etc) and this article is written by Lauren, who has her own blog called Hobo Mama which is also really good.
I use "live" for everything! Also "broken".
Examples:
The pots live in the cupboard.
The professor lives in the office at the top of the stairs.
I should find a better place for my diaries to live, this shelf is too small.
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The milk is broken. (We have run out of milk)
The milk is broken. (My milk has become too warm for me to enjoy drinking it)
The milk is broken. (The milk has passed its expiry date)
... Okay, there are better systems. But I like this one!
Also, I'm glad you find my enthusiasm for menstrual products cute rather than, say, disturbing!
That's so great!
Yes, cis men also have hormonal cycles. It's less obvious, because, y'know ... no blood everywhere!
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2012-04-27, 06:00 PM (ISO 8601)
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The male cycle is much shorter then the female one or 24 hours compared to their four week one.
Now as for men PMS-ing it sometimes happens that men imitate their partners (pregnancy being a more famous case) so it is quite possible for some men to experience something similar around the same time as their partner or former partner did."Elephant trunks should be used for elephant things only. Nothing else."
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2012-04-27, 06:04 PM (ISO 8601)
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Totally.
Worth it.
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2012-04-27, 06:25 PM (ISO 8601)
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The police also tend to get awfully ticked if they get called and a nonevent happens. As much as I'd like to see a case like this progress to ... well, news, Florida, political stuff, shoe on the other foot sort of thing.
The other things to keep in mind, even if you're a martial arts badass (which takes years of training and constant effort to keep one's skills polished, a significant opportunity cost that's often glossed over in discussions) is the plethora of complicating factors. Maybe the harasser is armed and things escalate to where there's no good answer. If I had to pick one of being harassed, being shot, doing prison time, or listening to ignorant yahoos for fifteen minutes, the last is the least objectionable option. Getting caught on camera beating some "innocent bystanders" is a PR nightmare as well as a personal one; courts again tend to frown on that sort of escalation, and getting a sympathetic judge is a crapshoot. And even in the simplest of situations, numbers are important, and you never know who will jump in on the other guy's side.
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2012-04-27, 06:38 PM (ISO 8601)
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Thanks to everyone for the hugs and support.
*manifests metamorphosis, grows tons of arms, hugs everyone back*
Re: counseling: Like I said, I don't have time in my schedule right now for an appointment (my college's counseling center is already booked around finals time, for obvious reasons, and I have class during the walk-in times), but it's on my to-do list. My friends are being very helpful and supportive as well, so I'm not doing this entirely alone--sister plus boyfriend plus best friend is just as good as, if not better than, having a therapist right now--and of course I have you guys too.
Re: hiding depression: I certainly understand being able to conceal that sort of thing, and Asta's insight on that is appreciated. Heck, every single person I've come out to has been completely floored and said they never saw it coming, and I wasn't even trying particularly hard to hide anything, so obviously someone who actually tried to hide depression could do a damn good job. It's just, y'know, you'd think one of his friends or one of his family members, or the girlfriend he spent a lot of time with would have noticed something amiss. I suppose it's precisely that easy conceal-ability that concerns me; do that a lot, and you enter self-deception territory, and then....
Re: Facebook page and memorial: I may have overreacted a teensy bit, probably as a reaction to the suddenness of the whole thing. "Wham, lost your friend, here's some pictures and memories; blam, pictures and memories are gone, sucks to be you." I tried the Wayback machine, but it doesn't have anything more recent than the announcement of his passing, so none of the additional material is there. I'll keep trying over the next few days, see if they get something, and I'll check with my friends to see if they know anything about it. The memorial service and funeral already passed, but the summer ceremony I'll definitely be able to get to, so that's a weight off my chest for the time being.
Thanks once again for the well wishes, everyone. It really means a lot.
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2012-04-27, 06:40 PM (ISO 8601)
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Seems to me that, while martial arts training and having an emergency call ready might be good ideas, one might run into a problem where attempting to fight might make the situation worse. Bigoted jerks are unpleasant normally, but if they've suffered harm at your hands, I can't see that improving their disposition. Even if you "win in the end, I would guess that it would be hard to totally escape harm. Plus, there's a large gulf between being theoretically capable of those things and actually being able to use them in an actual situation.
But then again, I've always preferred the option of fleeing or at least trying to talk my way out of these kinds of things, since I don't really have many other options.
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Originally Posted by Asta KaskLast edited by Selpharia; 2012-04-27 at 07:19 PM.
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2012-04-27, 07:06 PM (ISO 8601)
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See:
And we aren’t in the position of being able to hide in our homes, either. Only leaving, via teleporter, to get to our therapy, doctor and endocrinologist appointments, our pharmacy, and the laser clinic (which is funnier when considering the fact that I was on my way to my therapy appointment). And even IF SO, even IF we hide ourselves as much as conceivably possible from the world, never dare exposing ourselves to anyone we’re not 100% certain will be accepting (or end up devoting an immense degree of time, energy and resources into maintaining deep stealth), it’s STILL an inevitability. We STILL will eventually, someday, face this kind of hatred. It doesn’t ****ing matter if it’s in McDonald’s or in Whole Foods. A yuppie neighbourhood isn’t going to protect you.Last edited by Kindablue; 2012-04-27 at 07:22 PM.
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2012-04-27, 07:11 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: periods
SpoilerHeh. That's why we have no idea how to measure pain. Everyone experiences it differently - we can see how much brain activity certain pains cause, but we have no idea how the individual perceives it.
(also, as Bluewind pointed out, it's not really PMS either way, considering PMS is a medical condition)
Oh, absolutely (on the "irrational and crazy" thing)! I hate it when that somehow follows.
In a weird way, I've come to appreciate the emotional ebb, actually. Everything that feels wrong on that day is something that actually bothers me in some way. Since I'm notoriously bad at feeling my own emotions, it's nice to have a day when they come a-knocking so I can deal with them once my head's cleared.
I also won't discard the idea that my subconscious may know. It's probably smarter than I am
SpoilerI don't think I've been anyone's official goddess on a subject before. I'm incredibly flattered!
There are lots of good options for reusable menstrual products. I think the main barrier for most people is the "yuck, blood!" factor, but you kind of have to deal with that anyway, it's not like it's highly toxic or anything.
Anyway! If you're interested, here's a good place to start! It's a review of different reusable menstrual products on a good blog, run by parents who are generally into attachment/gentle parenting (breastfeeding, cloth nappies, babywearing etc) and this article is written by Lauren, who has her own blog called Hobo Mama which is also really good.
Thanks for the link! Now I just need to overcome my initial "eww, kids!" reaction, haha.
Interesting. Thanks.Spoiler
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2012-04-27, 07:33 PM (ISO 8601)
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You misunderstand. I'm not saying "why don't you become a trams Bruce Lee and stand triumphant over their cooling bodies with nary a scratch", because that's Unfeasible, and a waste of resources. I'm also not advocating being "proactive" with violence.
I am saying that if being attacked is a regular expectation in your life, the difference between getting hit, falling down and being hospitalized versus getting hit, backing off and getting away is worth looking into. Knowing how to get hit and not immediately crumple requires 3-5 class sessions and approximately ten hours a month, well in line with any exercise regime.
Know your local laws. Would the fact that they spent ten minutes verbally assaulting you and obviously building up to a hate crime mitigate the trouble the police would get you in? Would being stuck between physical impediments and cornered by men who have made it clear they would use excessive force allow for pre-emptive self defense? Would every witness who stood by while you were brutalized be accountable if the offense reached felony level?
I understand knowing the situation and choosing passivity. I do not understand lethal violence being so heavy a possibility, and not looking into fixes.
Originally Posted by kindablueLast edited by SiuiS; 2012-04-27 at 07:42 PM.
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2012-04-27, 07:59 PM (ISO 8601)
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A friend just looked over (we're marathoning Sherlock season two, but I watched it a couple of months back) and saw me looking at that page. Amusing comments ensued.
I use "live" for everything! Also "broken".
Examples:
The pots live in the cupboard.
The professor lives in the office at the top of the stairs.
I should find a better place for my diaries to live, this shelf is too small.
And
The milk is broken. (We have run out of milk)
The milk is broken. (My milk has become too warm for me to enjoy drinking it)
The milk is broken. (The milk has passed its expiry date)
... Okay, there are better systems. But I like this one!
Also, I'm glad you find my enthusiasm for menstrual products cute rather than, say, disturbing!
Yes, cis men also have hormonal cycles. It's less obvious, because, y'know ... no blood everywhere!
(Not really, my self-control is better than that. But I consider it sometimes. <.<
The one "fight" I've been in was my little brother getting mad at me and giving me my very first bloody nose a few months back. And that was my blood.)Jude P.
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2012-04-27, 08:22 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 08:23 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 08:40 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 08:49 PM (ISO 8601)
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Netflix is usually behind the times even in the best of cases. A quick search on Amazon shows that the DVDs can be imported (S2 already ran in the UK), or it can be acquired by less than legal means. Since S hasn't run in the U.S. I don't think there's any legal streaming.
What I find interesting is that when a trans person is present, people's attitudes and arguments seem to take a complete 180 from their usual position. I'll PM you a case from a few years back that had interesting parallels to the reactions rape cases usually elicit from people, as well as the rather political case I'm wondering how peoples reactions would change if a trans person were involved.
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2012-04-27, 10:10 PM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-27, 10:47 PM (ISO 8601)
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Re: LGBTAitP Part 23: Et tu, ~Bianca?
Tonight was very fun. I don't really know how to put it.
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I got VAC banned in COD: Ghosts for using an FOV changer.
I try not to think of how sad that is.
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2012-04-28, 02:05 AM (ISO 8601)
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I think mentioning news stories is one of those places where the overarching rules of "don't be a jerk" and "don't do anything that could get the site in legal hot water" take precedence over "before you post this, ask yourself if one of our 30,000 users might have reason to take offense with it". Private messages allowing people more room to step back without bystanders taking the fight up for themselves.
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2012-04-28, 02:17 AM (ISO 8601)
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Hey everyone. I'm kinda busy ATM, even if I don't have 11 exams coming up next week, but I thought I'd just drop in to offer support.
@Pair o'Dice Lost: Oh ouch. I feel that I can't really express my sympathy all that well, so I'll just give you two hugs to emphasize it *hugs* *hugs* . At least you have supportive people around you
@bluewind95, SMEE: you get hugs too, while I'm at it. have plenty of sucess with coping, please *hugs*
@Heliomance: on a happier note, that is very sweet of G, and very seet reaction on your side, too. COngratulationsLGBTA+itP
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2012-04-28, 05:07 AM (ISO 8601)
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On trans people and self-protection:
I'm sure this isn't what SiuiS means, but I'd just like to make the point that expecting a trans woman to take steps to be constantly able to defend herself from violence is stepping pretty close to putting the onus on trans people to avoid or deal with the hate crime, rather than on the ignorant transmisogynists to, y'know, not do it. We all deal with risks in our own way, depending on our own personal level of comfort. I'm not saying taking basic self defense classes is a bad idea - I think it's a good idea for anyone who feel unsafe and who wants to take some control. But it's a personal choice and she shouldn't have to.
That's really interesting. Maybe you've come to rely on it as a day to process things so your body keeps doing it.
I need no such day. I have a little known superpower, they call me Emotional Rollercoaster Woman! I experience emotions very strongly, and can't really hide them very well. I mean, I can hide mild boredom as someone tells me a story, but if their story upset me or amused me, it would be really obvious. I can laugh for 10 minutes straight, with later afterlaughs, some of which can be close to the magnitude of the original laughquake. I can cry for an hour straight, and I can't stop crying until I'm finished. It's completely ridiculous.
Nope! Surprisingly enough, most people don't really want me to tell them all about periods.
Don't worry, that page is kid-free. The blog also covers other things relevant to their interests!
Oopsie!
Uh, yes, yesterday!
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2012-04-28, 05:21 AM (ISO 8601)
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2012-04-28, 06:28 AM (ISO 8601)
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Hi there. How do I set an avatar?